as the day goes by...

I did not publish this entry last week since I felt like this was a personal thing...I mean, the real me...my thoughts...When I read it again, I feel that this is not a big deal...so here it is.

July 22, 2008 (unedited; spur of the moment)

I don’t know what has gotten into me. I was pissed off hours ago because I couldn’t find the DVD that I wanted to watch. I want to watch something funny because I can feel that I’m going to feel sad again. I don’t know…it just happened. Sometimes, I will just feel sad without any reason or maybe there is, I just don’t want to dwell what is the underlying reason why I’m sometimes like this. Then, it was followed by the bread that I wanted to eat. It was out of stock and it was unbelievable. I know that my day is not turning as what I wanted it to be. Then one more thing happened, I bought a street food to take home and just what I need, the vendor forgot to put the sauce. I was bursting with frustrations that I even texted my friend just to inform her that my day is a mess.

Hours later, I’ve watched one of my favorite American series. After watching two episodes, it was a coincidence that they were talking about misery and self pity. Hearing them exchanging lines, it made me think that they are right. We are sometimes wallowing in our misery that we forget that there are many people out there who are more miserable and living an imperfect life. There are times that we think, life should be perfect but it’s not. It just can’t be. Then after the episode ended, there was this line stated by their old classmate and not so there friend saying, “miss you guys, nobody seems to keep in touch anymore”. This simple line made me teary eyed…no it did not, it made me cried and inspired me to write this. Then after few seconds, the narrator said, “It’s about life, time and change…” I miss my friends, I miss everything…sometimes, I feel so alone and I can’t help it. I always said that I can live by myself so long as I have my dvd, books, laptop and drinks(coffee or tea) but there are times it’s not always like that…

P.S.
my days are now getting hectic...
it sometimes scares the hell out of me
I know someday things are going to be all right...
but some days...it's just kinda messy

Saturday...after long hours in school

Saturday...

I think everybody knows that I'm in my school every Saturday from morning til early evening. Here we go again...big bag, heavy books, photocopies and papers...this is my life. So many papers to submit that sometimes I don't know how I wrote them. Anyway, I know and I already accepted that I suck when it comes to writing. Creative writing is alright but academic writing...Ugghhh! I dread it. Usually I'm stuck with my laptop for minutes or sometimes hours and I just can't find the right words that will express my thoughts. This is always the sceanario and it's now making me weary. Then I decided last Saturday...from now on..I will love writing--As in--I LOVE WRITING! I said to myself that maybe everything is psychological that is why I can't write a good and maybe an exceptional paper

After spending the whole day in school, class was over..

Next stop--dinner. My classmates--Joei and Mark and I were already hungry. (Well, we are always hungry especially after a class. Maybe this is a sign that we are using our brains. giggle!) Anyway, we decided to have dinner at Mall of Asia but it took us maybe 30 minutes or so just to get to the mall even though it was just a few blocks away. It was all because of the traffic that would pissed anyone. It was like we were in a spider web. Then we finally arrived but we didn't know where to eat--the usual dilemma... Then we decided to eat at Padi's point. We ordered pork dishes like sisig and pork with tofu and we talked about our adventures in life. Then I found out many things about my classmate, Mark, that amazed me. First, he is younger than me, second, he'd been to different countries already and had many adventures that were so funny and third, he is like a child. Hahaha! He really made me laugh through out our dinner and I hadn't laugh like that for a long time already...Thanks to him! He made my dinner extra special.

Angels@Weng's wedding

June 28, 2008--Saturday...

I started to despise Saturdays because I have classes to attend and it start early in the morning but last Saturday, the feeling was different because it was my friend's (Rowena) wedding. I' was so excited to wake up and start my day. I went to school without bringing any books. I only brought the clothes that I have to wear for the wedding which I only grabbed from my closet. Then it hit me that I'm going to attend a wedding wearing my old clothes...grrr... anyway, I planned to buy a blouse after school...

At school...

Weng's wedding---it was her day. So, I didn't want to think about school stuffs. My mind was elsewhere. The worst about me being a student was I didn't attend the orrientation that was compulsory. I didn't know what it was but I think I have to attend two orrientations..whatever it was...I was just too excited to think about it. Not a time for me to be geeky, it was time to party.

After school

I met one of the Angels, Grace, at school and we had lunch together. After lunch, she went to Richmond Hotel in Ortigas, where the bride and her entourage should be. I, on the other hand, went to Shangri-la mall and bought clothes for the wedding then went to Ayka's place to dress up and to have my hair and make-up done...

An hour before the wedding

Ready for the big event...We, Ayka, Nancy and I, left 45 minutes before the time of the wedding. When we were on our way, we then realized that the place that we were going to was so far. We almost got lost though we had a map, then when we almost reached our destination, Grace txted me that they were lost. We tried to help them out and we waited for them outside the venue but they were already very late when they arrived. Anyway, it was Grace's story to tell...in short, the angels were not able to perform their duties in Weng's wedding. Very funny indeed...

Here are the photos while waiting for Grace to arrive....

At the wedding....we are in the reception area. By the way, the food was great and Ayka and I loved the chocolate fountain...hehehe!


...then the BRIDE, Mrs. Rowena Bautista-Juan and the GROOM,Mr. Herbert Juan

After the wedding, we were some of the guests who stayed behind. We waited for the bride and groom...and we were eating again...hahaha! Angels, pasimple effect...hahaha!

Time to go home...

We decided to go home since our eyes were already drooping. Everybody was tired and was seeking the comfort of their bed. We left the place together with the bride and groom. They were in the other car and we just followed them...scared to get lost again...then suddenly, out of the blue, everyone decided to have coffee in Starbuck and the nearest coffee house will be in the Fort so we decided to go there but there was one big problem, we were not familiar with the place. We went round and round and got lost again....then we found Starbucks..we had coffee and we talked and then concluded--at the end of the day...we usually end up in Starbucks...are we stockholders of Starbucks or something? wahahaha!

Then we go on our separate ways....We live far from each other like from east to west and north to south. To continue...Ayka lives in Katipunan--Atenista ang dating so she took a cab since Fort is not so far from Katipunan, Nancy lives in Munoz, somewhere in the north so she took a bus, Grace,together with Shey, lives in Cavite and since they have a car they didn't have any problem going home except for the gasoline..(The price is getting higher and higher) hahaha! Then, I live in Alabang so I took a bus...the series of unlucky events did not end when we got lost...it continued...I got off in a wrong place and then when I took a "dyip" going to my place, it broke down...what a tiring day! I arrived home at around 3'o clock in the morning. (sigh!)