Growing older

As we grow older, we always do the protecting but there are times that we also wish someone is protecting us even just for a moment.

As we grow older, responsibilities get bigger and there are times that we just want to soar freely.

As we grow older, people care less about us but there are times that what we need is someone who cares deeply to ease the pains in our hearts.

As we grow older, we always show our braves faces but there are times that we just want to sit in a corner and cry.

As we grow older, life becomes tougher but we have to go on for this is what life is all about--a cycle.

called a friend

Friends may be miles away but you never grow apart. Things will always be the same though some things already changed.


I can say that I got a handful of friends--some of them are not just my friends, they are my older sisters, younger sisters, my best friends and close friends. There is one thing that I know about these friends of mine, they are always here for me not just in celebrating but also in crying about life. 


A moment ago, I called a friend. A friend whom I rarely talk nowadays. Though she has different priorities now since she has a baby, a baby whom we love, but still she remains to be a friend whom I can rely on. This friend of mine is my former classmate, my mentor and my older sister.


A moment ago, I called this friend to ask about professional matters then out of the blue, we talked about the things going on with our lives. I summarized what I've been through these past months and so she was. We talked a little about the profession that we chose and about the struggles that we faced. As always, she gave me words of wisdom. It made me missed her so much. It made me think again on the  days when we had to pull each other up in order to withstand the challenges. Though it was a short call, it made me feel that I got a friend who would always support me no matter what.

In getting a job

I am confident that I have good qualifications. I have good educational background so I know that landing a job will not really be a problem to me. A week ago, I applied for a job abroad. I believe that the agency liked my resume but then when I was interviewed, the interviewer advised me to lose weight. I know that he didn't want me to get offended and maybe being slim was one of the qualifications of their client. I understand his point and I know that physical appearance plays a big role in landing for a good job but I cannot just fathom that it is such a big deal.I'm not applying to become an entertainer, performer or a model. I love the job that I applied for and I believe that I'm qualified with it except that I'm fat. I feel like I'm such a loser. Almost all my life I strive to be better than others in terms of education but it the end, everything seems useless. I really have to lose weight. I don't want this kind of incident to happen again. It's a big blow to me and it's like someone is telling me, "IN YOUR FACE". This is how fat I am------->>>>

it's been almost a year

I miss blogging. I miss writing down my thoughts. I miss a lot of things.