It's almost Christmas

Hours from now and it will be Christmas...I think I'm going to stay alone in my apartment or maybe I will go to my Team Leader's house and have a noche buena there. Anyway, I'm not yet decided on what to do this evening.

Christmas, a very important holiday...a season of love, sharing, giving and forgiving. Thinking about the things I've done and the blessings that I've received. I can say that I'm such a lucky person. I have a great family, good friends and a nice job. I don't have many responsibilities. I only look after myself and my family doesn't expect anything from me. I can say, life is so good to me. I didn't really experience hardships like others do but then I think there were times that I just took my blessing for granted. For this Christmas, I would like to wish for other people and for myself--for me to be a better person. hahaha!

Twilight and a little bit of shopping...

Yes..I hang out with my one and only apartment mate, Kareen. It's been a while since we really talked. We live in the same apartment but we didn't even have time to talk. Well, I was just too busy these past few weeks and I know that she didn't want to disturb me. Anyway, we decided to go to ATC and watch Twilight since my groupmates and I only have one more paper to revise and everything was almost done last Sunday. Before watching, of course we had our dinner and minutes before the movie starts, I saw a big SALE sign in CMG...well, I went crazy and I bought black ballerina shoes and one pink bag in just a span of few minutes..it was really awesome. It was a best buy...thank god! I passed that store...Then we went to the cinema side of the mall hurrying for we might miss the movie. I think I can't forgive myself if we've missed a part of that movie...well, I've been dying to watch this movie ever since and then when it was officially out, I didn't have time to watch it..that sucks, right? When the movie started, it was kind of disappointing at first because the Edward in my imagination is too handsome, well correction...beautiful compared to Edward in the movie but then the whole movie was kind of all right...not too bad. I was giggling and so excited when I watched it..some kinda like a teenager reaction...hahaha! Oh! I really want to watch it again...too crazy and I want to read all of the four books again...hahaha! Hmmm...a question keeps on bugging my mind...Where can I find my Edward? Imagining things again...silly..

It's over for now...

It's been a month or so that I've been cramming and busy and now, it's really official, all of my papers were submitted since last weekend and the last paper was submitted yesterday...Oh! I can't believe that I was able to submit every requirements. I thought I'm going to have an INC this sem but then there's still one problem--grades are not yet out..that will be this coming Friday and I'm not excited to find out what my grades will be...

Anyway, I really want to thank those people who were there for me especially my group mates. We've been through a lot and I'm glad that we made it. I think we're getting good in handling pressures...no much tears and crankiness and we can still manage to laugh at our mistakes...hahaha! I'm just glad that it's over..I feel like I'm so free today and I feel like shouting (party mood). I can now watch DVD, read the books that I want, shop for Christmas and meet some of my friends. Speaking of friends, I'm so sorry that I didn't have time to spend with you these past few weeks. I hope we can go out one of these day before the year ends.

One semester down...many more to go...

Excursion sa Enchanted Kingdom

Team building--
Destination: Enchanted Kingdom
Team: TeamJanbie
Date: Friday, December 05, 2008

I know that I don't have the right to have fun 'coz of my deadlines. I have papers to submit and I only have one more week to finish all of my papers. Anyway, I didn't regret that I joined our team building. It was fun even though I had a headache when I reached home and there were things that I had to do hours before I go to school. I was stressed out again and I didnt have the right to sleep since I spent my Friday afternoon having fun in EK. Well, I had to do my school stuffs...Again, sometimes cramming brings the best in me...

Going to the horror house...I think it was the the most unforgettable event. When, we entered the horror house, my TL's flip flop got broken maybe because everybody was pushing each other. Anyway, it was chaotic. When we realized what happened, my teammates and I laughed so hard that I almost roll and crawl because of my TL's reaction. Instead of getting scared, my TL was shouting to the "scary people" and was pissed off because of her flip flops. She even asked one of the "monsters" to help her out.well, I think we entered the wrong house because I though it was a comedy house...

The time I spent with my team was memorable and enjoyable. It's so nice to go out and have fun once in a while instead of just staying at home and cover myself with books and papers...hahaha! It sometimes make me feel so geeky and outdated.

Let's get married...

OMG! My heart stopped for 20 seconds...I'm speechless...

Burn out...

I think I'm too young to feel this way but I'm really burn out. I'm so tired of working and studying. Too tired that I dream of having nothing to do but just stay at home, sleep, sip coffee or tea after waking up or during afternoons, watch TV or DVD, surf the internet,read books, eat and sit. Basically, just stay at home or stay in a place far from civilization. A place where there is a nice view, maybe a mountain or sea. I want to be a bum...this is my dream. If others dream of being on top, having a great career and be competitive. Before, these are parts of my dream and now, I don't want this kind of things anymore.Maybe I still want them but not as much as I want them before. I'm just too tired to go after these things. I think what I want is a very simple life. It's just me who is making it complicated. The things that I'm doing now are giving me headaches and stress. I'm giving myself a year or two to finish what I started and after this, I'm going to live my life without much stress and pressures. Others might think that I'm such a ludicrous person, a person who wants to bum around but who cares...Maybe once in our life, we will feel this way or I'm just such a lazy person.

Unrequited LOVE

I'm really into drama these past few months and everytime I watch a drama, there is always this person that will love one of the main characters but then it is just a one sided love so she/he will end up hurt. In short, it's unrequited love. I wonder how it really feels to love someone and knowing that someone will never be yours. Just like LITTLE MERMAID, some of us think that the little mermaid and the prince lived happily ever after but then it was not the real story, they did not end up together. The mermaid sacrificed herself because of her love. In reality, these things happen. There were people who were hopeful that there love would be returned but then they just ended up frustrated, hurt and bitter. Some of them are...

Unrequited love is such a melacholy thing. Maybe they're not just meant to be, maybe there is another person waiting for them. There are endless possibilities why these people did not end up with their love ones but then I guess, that's life. We can't get anything we want even though we badly want it, even though our life depends on it...

WHY WHY LOVE

OMG! I can't deny the fact that I'm a certified DRAMA addict...Despite my busy schedule, I can still squeeze in the dramas that I wanted to watch. Bad for me...What can I do, the more I think about it, the more I can't work. So, I really have to finish the drama that I wanted...

Well, this weekend..I'm through watching WHY WHY LOVE...I'm in love again...waaahhhh...The drama is so nice. It makes me feel blissful...hahaha! And it makes me want to learn Mandarin. I now have the motivation to learn a new language...lol!

Visiting Manila's Historical places

Djhai and I went to Fort Santiago and Intramuros. It was so funny. It was like an educational trip. It was my first time to visit Fort Santiago and my second time to visit Intramuros. The feeling was great. It was like "me and my being a Filipino". It made me appreciate "me" being a Filipino. Sometimes, we dread to be one because of the discrimination that we usually get from other people and because of the things that is happening in our country but then Philippines is our home. The more I encounter people from different countries, the more I know about other culture then the more I appreciate our country and our values. hahaha! What can I say...I LOVE PHILIPPINES! and there is no place like HOME.

Anyway, we had a lot of fun. After Fort Santiago and Intramuros, we went to Harbour Square to experience the view of Manila Bay.

Procrastination...

These past few days or maybe weeks already, I think I'm one of the laziest people in this world.I'm always procrastinating and making excuses. Bad attitude, huh? I hope I will be motivated enough to do my research papers because there are three of them that I have to finish before 2nd week of December. I think I have to be a superwoman for the next few weeks since I'm already loaded with so many things to do. I already expect that I'm going to have sleepless nights and good luck to my eyebags..hahahaha! I think I'm really a sucker for cramming. For the coming weeks, I really have to give up on some things or maybe minimize doing them like watching drama (hahaha!so addicted to it) and sleeping.

Wish me luck...I need a lot of them. Hope my grades won't be so bad this term.

HAPPINESS...

As usual, the things that I have to do are already waiting for me. I think I'm going to be drowned this semester...

requirements/papers to submit + procrastination = kill me

Even though there are a lot of things going on around me and lot of things that I have to do but I feel so happy these days...I realized, I don't know when, that the most important thing inmy life is HAPPINESS. I feel so happy that I don't know how to describe it. I hope that I will always be a jolly person and not a cranky one...Maybe I'm feeling this way because I can now see clearly that the world is a beautiful place to live and life is like a rainbow. I hope that everybody will be happy as I am right now. I hope we will all be contented on what we have but will not also forget to chase for our dreams.

Can't wait to be free...

It's Friday again but then I don't know what's in this week. This is one of my favorite days in a week but then before my day really started...a bad news was given to me and that was for me to transfer to another station. This is one of my hatest thing to do and on top of that..I don't want my new station...hahaha! Before my weekday ends, I have to do things that I don't want. Well, what can I do...there are just things that I don't have any control of and the best thing that I could do is to bend to it. I always say to myself that everything has a reason but sometimes it's hard to accept things...maybe it's just my stubborness...I hope next week will be a better one. I can't really wait for me to finish my studies so that I can do the things that I want. I feel like I'm holding back my life and I can't wait to be totally free of any responsibilities.

THINGS TO DO AFTER MY STUDIES...

1. Have at least a month vacation--anywhere
2. Have a healthy lifestyle--jog everyday
3. Have a job that I really want
4. Learn how to speak Mandarin or any language
5. Read many books
6. Bake some cakes and pastries
7. Spend some time with my friends
8. Play--badminton, soccer, computer games...
9. Serve a community
10.Have a dog

An extraordinary day

Yesterday, I lost my cellphone. It was my second time to lost a phone. The first one was when I was in college while I was playing soccer and the second time around was--actually, I don't know where it was lost and what exactly happened. The thing that pissed me off was when I called my phone's service provider. Their customer service representatives were not helpful at all. I talked to four different CSRs before the service that I wanted was done and the only thing that I wanted from them was my plan to be blocked. I was not really concern about my phone but what I was worried about my plan. I definitely don't want to pay phone calls and text messages that I did not make. Anyway, thank god that my plan was blocked and so is my phone even though it was 3 hours late. These past few days, there were not some not so good things happened to me but then I'm not really upset about it maybe because I always think that I'm still a hell of a lucky girl.

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Hours before my phone was lost...

Well, I finished watching another Taiwanese Drama...hahaha! I was so happy..I'm crazy about Taiwanese and Korean drama and of course American series...

These are my favorites MVs from the Taiwanese drama Ying Ye 3 Jia 1.






Hope you will enjoy watching and listening to it because I did...;)

At the end of the day, I realized that things happen to us..a good one and sometimes a bad one..but then it's up to us on how we are going to deal with it. Last night, I chose to look at the bright side and I chose to count my blessings.

like a chain letter?

::START::

1. Add your blog/s to the list. Feel free to add all your other blogs. It’s okay if you only post these questions in one blog as long as you answer them.

2. Get back to ME and I’ll add your blogs to the master’s list HERE {Note that you are not ALLOWED to change this links and make sure to leave the exact URL.}

3. Copy from Start to End.

4. Tag as many friends online you know. But you don’t need to be tagged in order to join.



Who played along:1. Music of my heart 2. Me and Mine 3. Creative in Me 4. For the LOVE of Food 5. Little Peanut 6. Pea in a Pod 7. It’s Where the HEART Is 8. Around the World 9. Quicker8 10. Eds Mommy Life 11. My Precious Niche 12. Just Me.. Eds 13. Princess Vien 14. In The Spirit of Dance 15. A Pocketful of Happiness 16. 1 Twelve St. 17. Shopaholic Ties the Knot 18. A Reality Bite 19. me, Myself and I 20. My So Called Life 21. Haven of Thoughts and Feelings 22. My Life's Canvas 23. Disappearances Happen 24: My journey...



Questions and Answers:

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4.

--about which section might need to be emphasized (ano raw?)

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

--window

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

--They kissed again (Taiwanese drama...hahaha!)

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is

--8 am

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

--8:04

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

-- My officemate singing a song.

7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?

--few minutes ago, I was talking with my friend.

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?

--I was watching the news in yahoo

9. What are you wearing?

-- jeans, yellow shirt and slippers

10. Did you dream last night?

--I did but I can't remember what exactly it is.

11. When did you last laugh?

--a few minutes ago.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

-- my schedules and reminders

13. Seen anything weird lately?

--Nope..maybe it was not weird for me.

14. What do you think of this quiz?

--just for fun

15. What is the last movie you saw?

--Over her dead body (Eva Longoria's movie)

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?

-- a business establishment

17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know:

-- In my 20+ years in this world, I only had written one poem and that was years ago.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

-- I would fixed the ozone layer and change our environment--to a better one

19. Do you like to dance?

--sometimes

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? a boy?

-- Danielle Yvonne for my daughter and Devlin for my son.

21. Would you ever consider living abroad?

-- yes.



::END::now tagging:: weng and koren

FRIENDS

I've already received many blessings, some of them...I may even take it for granted.

One of the blessings that made me feel so lucky is my friends. I always have good and true friends. In fact, I'm always surrounded by them.

When I was in Elementary. I had a best friend name Faith. Too bad, we don't communicate now. Maybe because we were too young then and maybe everything just lost in time. She was my first friend whom I treated as a sister. I hope one of these days, we will meet again and be best friends.

When I was in High school and college...skark and muffins were there for me. I know that I had a not so good attitude back then but they stayed by my side. They were understanding and supportive. When we were in high school, I can still remember that we always do the same things. We ate, sleep, go to school, do naughty things together. Those were my memorable years. Though later on, when we were in college our interests varied already and some of them transferred school but then it seemed that nothing changed. We were more matured than when we were in high school. We met different people...we hanged out with other people at times but then there was always "US". At the end of the day, we usually talked about the events that happened to us. Then my graduation came...then summer...that was the last time we saw each other...then they graduated the following year...

I hope that I could hang out with you guys....talk to you like before...I know that things change but for me you guys will always be a family....for all the hardships and fun that we've been through, it made me a stronger and better person. I will not be the person I am now if not because of it.

After college...I met a lot of people especially in my workplace. I met the Angels and I met my friends here in my present company, where I'm working and I met some in my grad school. I know that there were times that I was unbearable but then they always try to understand me and so as I...I try to understand myself and my friends as well. Things are different now. We are older but sometimes our maturity is still questionable. This time, some problems are different but then there are some that are still the same but the point is, we always stick together. For the last few years, months, weeks and days, these people are the one who are always beside me. Supporting me in my every endeavour.

I'm writing this because I would like to thank these people. I will not be where I am right now and I will not be this kind of person...a better one if not because of them. In every accomplishments that I have and I will have, my friends, aside from my family, are part of it.

THANK YOU!
Life becomes easier because of friends.

Star studded event

Last Sunday...Krn, my roommate and I was invited to a party in Shangrila-Edsa Hotel. I was hesitant because I just want to stay at home and watch dvds. In short, couch potato...Well, they [Krn and Noreen] talked me out of it and then they told me that it would be a great event but then we had to wear smart casual...grrr....It means no Havainas for me. So, I have to wear sandals and be a girl-la-loo.

We arrived at 5:oo pm and supposedly we had to be there at 4:oo pm. Well, we were late and some of the reasons were: we left home late already and my friend, Krn insisted on taking MRT because this would be her first time(giggle!). So, we told the taxi driver to drop us off to the nearest station. She felt so happy that she was able to take the train. Anyway since we arrived late, we were not able to see the program. Noreen was already waiting for us in the lobby but then she didn't tell us that we were attending a star studded event and we only realized it when we enter the venue. It was Star Magic 2009 catalogue launching. Actresses and actors were there and our eyes were feasting. There were too many of them that it made me feel dizzy. Some of the big stars in ABS-CBN were there...name it...Claudine, Piolo, Diether, Bea, Sam Milby, Shaina, Maja and so many others. They were gorgeous that it made me think if they were real or not. They looked like manequins or people fresh from a cover of a magazine. They seemed surreal. Well, I was introduced to Noreen's boyfriend who was the one who had an access on this event. He was a great guy and he told us to move around and to get some food. Speaking of food...it was great especially the desserts and also wines were flowing. I even had more or less 5 glasses of white wine. There were many people and some of them were taking pictures...Well, too shy to do that...hahaha! After an hour or so, we left already. We didn't want to be one of the people to be left behind.

After the event, we went to Noreen's boyfriend's condo. He cooked food for dinner and we watched dvd/TV. The night was fun but then we had to go home early because I had to wake up at dawn.

Photo from ABS-CBN

HONGKONG trip...

I arrived late last night and now I'm so sleepy. I only slept for 3 hours today but it's worth it. The only word that I can say right now about HongKong is AWESOME! I love it there...I love there transportation system and of course their octupus card..There are so many things that I want to rant about our trip but then I don't know where to start.

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a week or so later...

I wrote the blog above, I think almost two weeks ago..then I stopped..

Here is the continuation...

Since I don't know how to put our trip into words, so I made a video and I just finished it hours ago...woooh!

First week of my classes

Yesterday, the weather was bad. There was a storm which started around two days ago. It was raining hard. One could hear the strong wind blowing. A day like this makes me want to just stay at home, maybe sleep or watch a movie and sip a hot coffee in my favorite mug but then yesterday was my first class for this semester...urrggghhh! Well, I could stay at home and be absent on my class but I would definitely be left behind. Good thing, I made the right choice, I went to class because right there and then our prof assigned text to read and discussed about our soon to be presentation and research paper. First day of class but then we were already bombarded with lots of readings and paper works...hahaha! Well, I chose this and I have to deal with it...




Tomorrow, I will be off to HK. I still don't think that this is the best idea but then I just have to enjoy it and try to make this trip a memorable one. So, I hope that everything will be fine and I hope I will not run out of money while I'm there...urrgghhh...I don't like traveling with only a handful of money. Anyway, I will just find a way to have fun with out spending much money..Oh! I hope I will not have a hard time catching up with my lessons in school...Saturday classes...sorry...HK here I come....

New Moon by Stephenie Meyer

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

--Edward

After reading this, my heart melted...
A girl can wish, a girl can dream that one of these days
something like this will be heard...

25th birthday

Last saturday was my birthday. Angels and I had a lunch date which started around 2pm...hahaha! Late lunch already. The day was fine. I could not say that I was ecstatic about it. There were so many things bugging me. Anyway, we had a lunch in a Thai restaurant in Eastwood and since Weng's and my birthday were two days apart, it was like a double celebration. The food was fine and what I liked most was the soup. After lunch, some of my friends had to go somewhere but Weng and I opted to stay. I was not in the mood to really socialize because I didn't want to just burst and say something that I might regret later. As what I had said earlier, there were so many things going on my mind. I'm thankful that I decided to stay in Eastwood with Weng, we were able to talk about things...

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What's going on?

Is it my personality or I'm just a bitchy person? It's been days already. I've been thinking so hard. I thought I'm going to have a wonderful semester break but I think this is worst than coming up with a research paper. I'm having a hard time sleeping and I'm getting restless. Logic tells me that I'm going to make a very bad decision and I don't want to make bad decisions. I already weighted the consequences and the advantages but then the result was a red flag waving unto my face. Then, my other side keeps on telling me that I could hurt other people's feelings if I would follow what my logical side. Well, I'm hurting them already even though they were not telling me what they felt. Such a bitchy person?

As I went over the things that happened, I made several mistakes or let's say many mistakes. One of these is I fully depend on someone. Well, I want to trust someone. I believe that each of us is unique, worth trusting and each of us is flawed. There is no such thing as perfect. Maybe there are things that I'm the only one who can do it but then there are things that I can't do which that person can only do. I believe on this but sometimes it's hard to accept things. I'm not the kind of person who easily accept things. Maybe this happens because there are times that I want things to flow smoothly. It's hard for me to accept mistakes when I could have done better...when that person could have done better because I know he/she can do better. Maybe I expected more...maybe it's just me...

I don't like blaming someone and I'm not blaming anyone because I don't want to make excuses. People blame others just to make excuses Maybe someone made some mistakes but I'm part of this. I should have known better. I bring this to myself and there is nothing I could do but accept things. I think this is one of the hardest part when you know that you will be dammned and because you tried not to hurt someone, you will be dammned also.

One other thing, I'm poor in communication. I am sometimes hesitant to express what I really feel because I might say something or do something that would make matters worst. I'm hot tempered and impatient person. I have known this for a long time and being level headed and being patient are not one of my finest virtues when things are getting chaotic. So, being patient and controlling my temper are not easy thing to do. In fact, it's a real struggle for me. I know that Angels haven't seen me yet being so mad or let's say throwing tantrums--I mean to the highest level. I don't want to be the person when I was younger. Bitchy and cranky. Until now, it's still an amazing thing why my friends way back bear with me. I know that I was not easy to live with.

The best thing that I could do is to settle my feelings and my thinking but it's kind of driving me crazy. I feel like I will end up hating myself for doing what I don't really want to do because I don't do things that I don't want to or they will end up hating me for being a bitchy person and for ruining a trip. I hope I would feel better before this coming Saturday or else I would just ruin everything and maybe ruin something that is so wonderful.

Twilight by Stephenie Meyer

Twilight....it was recommended by my friend ages ago but I didn't take it seriously...then I found out that everbody was reading it...I got curious..I went to a bookstore but it was sold out already. Too bad but then out of the blue, one of my officemates and closest friend, Grace, told me that her friend just gave her a PDF copy...why not? I hate reading using computer but then I have no choice but to grab it...then I started reading...then I couldn't stop...then I found out it was a simple but humorous and exciting book and the only word I was able to utter after reading it was WOW!

The story....mmmmm...better read it. I love reading about vampyres...They intrigue me.

Edward makes me fall for him...Seriously..I'm now head over heels in love with him...hahaha! I can't wait to read the rest of the books.

To my friend Koren and to my other friends who don't read a lot:

Read the book then you will know what I'm talking about.

I know that reading books sometimes makes you sleep but I swear this is so good.

I read a lot of books and this is one of them that is really worth reading.

Happy reading!

DYNAMIC THINKER!!!

Here I go again...taking a test..now, it's a personality test...sign of nothing to do...
I'm done submitting all the requirement in school and I have two weeks to enjoy.
It's sem-break...wooohhh!
I can really say that LIFE IS WONDERFUL!!
Well, I'm having a pre-birthday syndrome as what Weng called it but I'm trying to be more positive...

MY TEST...here you go...

Dynamic Thinker (DT)

Dynamic Thinkers are confident and independent persons. They radiate enthusiasm and energy. Dynamic Thinkers pursue their objectives actively and energetically. They love nothing better than new challenges. This type is the born leader, competent, energetic and responsible. They have a sharp eye for errors and can criticise without mercy if they see the success of a project endangered. They are completely unconcerned as to whether they alienate anyone in the process. But they are always open to objective arguments; they love discussions, they are very gifted rhetorically and they are good at convincing and enthusing others.

As they are very sociable, Dynamic Thinkers like to have a lot of friends around them, preferably those with whom they can share their interests and discuss all sorts of subjects. They are very direct but never in an underhand or scheming manner. If you can bear being spoken to frankly, you have in them a loyal and unwavering advisor as friend. Everything new and unknown stimulates Dynamic Thinkers and awakens their curiosity. However, rules, routine and traditional things arouse their resistance. If something does not go the way they want it to, they can react rather pigheadedly and obstinately.

Dynamic Thinkers expect a great deal of themselves and of others. Whoever does not fit in with their scheme of things does not have it easy. They sometimes appear to be rather severe due to their frankness. Partners and family also find it difficult to satisfy Dynamic Thinkers. They know exactly what they want and compromising is inconceivable to them. Whoever has an Dynamic Thinker as partner should have a strong personality and have a great deal of independence and sufficient self-confidence in order to give this dominating type some opposition. Normally, for Dynamic Thinkers, a partnership only takes second place after their profession. But they like to have someone at their side who is a match for them intellectually, with whom they can pursue mutual objectives and have interesting discussions all night long; preferably factual discussions - sentimentalism and romance are not their thing.

Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, theoretical, logical, planning, rational, self-confident, ambitious, direct, open, severe, organised, determined, witty, independent, purposeful, dynamic, energetic, optimistic, competent, responsible, clever, intellectual, enthusiastic, demanding, structured, controlled, aggressive

These subjects could interest you: literature, sport (golf, tennis, running), travel, career, strategy games, politics

Take the test: PERSONALITY TYPE

I guess it's quite true...It seems that this is really me....

Gossip Girl...Serena? ME?

LOL! well, I'm too tired to continue my research paper...here I am..taking tests on my favorite shows...

TEST II: Which Gossip Girl Character are you?

YOU'RE SERENA VAN DER WOODSEN

You're the bad girl gone good. We admire anyone who can admit her mistakes and wants to start over. Problem is there are people out there who are going to try and stop you, particularly your old self. Hopefully your newly developed inner-strength and optimistic spirit will help you overcome any obstacles thrown your way, even if that obstacle comes in the shape of uber-bitch slash BFF Blair Waldorf.

TAKE THE TEST: Which Gossip Girl Character are you?

I'm Christina?

I'm Grey's anatomy's CHRISTINA...hahaha! I knew it. I think it was just my imagination that we have similarities especially in attitude...hahaha! Oh no! I don't really like her sometimes but most of the time, I admire her.

MY DIAGNOSIS:Your work is your life.Nothing makes you happier than long hours spent in life and death situations, now if only your own life were more together!Good thing you have friends to tell you when to slow down and are there for you when you finally admit you need help.

About the diagnosis...mmm? Let me think about this.Partly true but I think not everything.LOL!

Try and take the test: GREY'S DIAGNOSIS

because I chose to be one...

so frustrating...

Last saturday was my presentation for my other research paper. I found out that I made a mistake in my study and I couldn't do anything about it now since the deadline is this coming Wednesday. This is my first paper where I gave an effort and it turns out that it was a bad paper. I think it's not substantial enough and it's not good enough especially when it comes to its structure. It's just so disappointing because maybe I expected that this paper will be better than my previous papers.

Disappointment--this is what I always get when I give my best. I always end up frustrated...that is why I rather not expect something from anything or anyone because I always end up disappointed. I always do. I think expectation is equals to disappointment and frustrations. The last time that I felt like this...having a big disappointment in life is when I was in college...when I was playing soccer...there are things that I badly want and I do everything to get it but in the end, it will only give me frustations..I actually hate this kind of feeling. Right now, it seems nothing is right for me. Everything I do is a struggle. Everything I want...I got it because I had been through hell and back. Sometimes it's so tiring...sometimes I just want to stop fighting and let things be...sometimes I just don't want to care anymore...

GOSSIP GIRL season 2...sneak peak

I just can wait to watch the new season of Gossip Girl...so excited...

Beethoven's letter

Letter 3
Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us -
I can live only wholly with you or not at all -
Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits -
Yes, unhappily it must be so -
You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never -
Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.
And yet my life in V is now a wretched life -
Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men -
At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection?
My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day -
therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once -
Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together -
Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell.
Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours

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This is the third letter of Beethoven for his beloved and if you've watched SEX and the CITY --the movie. I'm sure, you heard it read by Carrie.

I bet this is one of every girls dreams...a confession from someone they love...

Guilty feeling...

so guilty...

I just finished watching Taiwanese Drama last night. I know that I have two research papers to submit next week but I couldn't help myself but watch it. Anyway, I'm glad I'm done watching Started with a Kiss and They kissed again. Now, I can concentrate on my research papers. hahaha!

I'm such a romantic sucker...Well, the two dramas were so cute and funny.

Angels...

Angels, this is for us...our memories together . Hope you guys will enjoy watching it.

angelkrizz

as the day goes by...

I did not publish this entry last week since I felt like this was a personal thing...I mean, the real me...my thoughts...When I read it again, I feel that this is not a big deal...so here it is.

July 22, 2008 (unedited; spur of the moment)

I don’t know what has gotten into me. I was pissed off hours ago because I couldn’t find the DVD that I wanted to watch. I want to watch something funny because I can feel that I’m going to feel sad again. I don’t know…it just happened. Sometimes, I will just feel sad without any reason or maybe there is, I just don’t want to dwell what is the underlying reason why I’m sometimes like this. Then, it was followed by the bread that I wanted to eat. It was out of stock and it was unbelievable. I know that my day is not turning as what I wanted it to be. Then one more thing happened, I bought a street food to take home and just what I need, the vendor forgot to put the sauce. I was bursting with frustrations that I even texted my friend just to inform her that my day is a mess.

Hours later, I’ve watched one of my favorite American series. After watching two episodes, it was a coincidence that they were talking about misery and self pity. Hearing them exchanging lines, it made me think that they are right. We are sometimes wallowing in our misery that we forget that there are many people out there who are more miserable and living an imperfect life. There are times that we think, life should be perfect but it’s not. It just can’t be. Then after the episode ended, there was this line stated by their old classmate and not so there friend saying, “miss you guys, nobody seems to keep in touch anymore”. This simple line made me teary eyed…no it did not, it made me cried and inspired me to write this. Then after few seconds, the narrator said, “It’s about life, time and change…” I miss my friends, I miss everything…sometimes, I feel so alone and I can’t help it. I always said that I can live by myself so long as I have my dvd, books, laptop and drinks(coffee or tea) but there are times it’s not always like that…

P.S.
my days are now getting hectic...
it sometimes scares the hell out of me
I know someday things are going to be all right...
but some days...it's just kinda messy

Saturday...after long hours in school

Saturday...

I think everybody knows that I'm in my school every Saturday from morning til early evening. Here we go again...big bag, heavy books, photocopies and papers...this is my life. So many papers to submit that sometimes I don't know how I wrote them. Anyway, I know and I already accepted that I suck when it comes to writing. Creative writing is alright but academic writing...Ugghhh! I dread it. Usually I'm stuck with my laptop for minutes or sometimes hours and I just can't find the right words that will express my thoughts. This is always the sceanario and it's now making me weary. Then I decided last Saturday...from now on..I will love writing--As in--I LOVE WRITING! I said to myself that maybe everything is psychological that is why I can't write a good and maybe an exceptional paper

After spending the whole day in school, class was over..

Next stop--dinner. My classmates--Joei and Mark and I were already hungry. (Well, we are always hungry especially after a class. Maybe this is a sign that we are using our brains. giggle!) Anyway, we decided to have dinner at Mall of Asia but it took us maybe 30 minutes or so just to get to the mall even though it was just a few blocks away. It was all because of the traffic that would pissed anyone. It was like we were in a spider web. Then we finally arrived but we didn't know where to eat--the usual dilemma... Then we decided to eat at Padi's point. We ordered pork dishes like sisig and pork with tofu and we talked about our adventures in life. Then I found out many things about my classmate, Mark, that amazed me. First, he is younger than me, second, he'd been to different countries already and had many adventures that were so funny and third, he is like a child. Hahaha! He really made me laugh through out our dinner and I hadn't laugh like that for a long time already...Thanks to him! He made my dinner extra special.

Angels@Weng's wedding

June 28, 2008--Saturday...

I started to despise Saturdays because I have classes to attend and it start early in the morning but last Saturday, the feeling was different because it was my friend's (Rowena) wedding. I' was so excited to wake up and start my day. I went to school without bringing any books. I only brought the clothes that I have to wear for the wedding which I only grabbed from my closet. Then it hit me that I'm going to attend a wedding wearing my old clothes...grrr... anyway, I planned to buy a blouse after school...

At school...

Weng's wedding---it was her day. So, I didn't want to think about school stuffs. My mind was elsewhere. The worst about me being a student was I didn't attend the orrientation that was compulsory. I didn't know what it was but I think I have to attend two orrientations..whatever it was...I was just too excited to think about it. Not a time for me to be geeky, it was time to party.

After school

I met one of the Angels, Grace, at school and we had lunch together. After lunch, she went to Richmond Hotel in Ortigas, where the bride and her entourage should be. I, on the other hand, went to Shangri-la mall and bought clothes for the wedding then went to Ayka's place to dress up and to have my hair and make-up done...

An hour before the wedding

Ready for the big event...We, Ayka, Nancy and I, left 45 minutes before the time of the wedding. When we were on our way, we then realized that the place that we were going to was so far. We almost got lost though we had a map, then when we almost reached our destination, Grace txted me that they were lost. We tried to help them out and we waited for them outside the venue but they were already very late when they arrived. Anyway, it was Grace's story to tell...in short, the angels were not able to perform their duties in Weng's wedding. Very funny indeed...

Here are the photos while waiting for Grace to arrive....

At the wedding....we are in the reception area. By the way, the food was great and Ayka and I loved the chocolate fountain...hehehe!


...then the BRIDE, Mrs. Rowena Bautista-Juan and the GROOM,Mr. Herbert Juan

After the wedding, we were some of the guests who stayed behind. We waited for the bride and groom...and we were eating again...hahaha! Angels, pasimple effect...hahaha!

Time to go home...

We decided to go home since our eyes were already drooping. Everybody was tired and was seeking the comfort of their bed. We left the place together with the bride and groom. They were in the other car and we just followed them...scared to get lost again...then suddenly, out of the blue, everyone decided to have coffee in Starbuck and the nearest coffee house will be in the Fort so we decided to go there but there was one big problem, we were not familiar with the place. We went round and round and got lost again....then we found Starbucks..we had coffee and we talked and then concluded--at the end of the day...we usually end up in Starbucks...are we stockholders of Starbucks or something? wahahaha!

Then we go on our separate ways....We live far from each other like from east to west and north to south. To continue...Ayka lives in Katipunan--Atenista ang dating so she took a cab since Fort is not so far from Katipunan, Nancy lives in Munoz, somewhere in the north so she took a bus, Grace,together with Shey, lives in Cavite and since they have a car they didn't have any problem going home except for the gasoline..(The price is getting higher and higher) hahaha! Then, I live in Alabang so I took a bus...the series of unlucky events did not end when we got lost...it continued...I got off in a wrong place and then when I took a "dyip" going to my place, it broke down...what a tiring day! I arrived home at around 3'o clock in the morning. (sigh!)

The note

The note of Virginia Woolf to her husband:

"I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been."

I encountered this note while I was browsing the internet. When I read this,it made me think of how powerful love is. One can make sacrifices for the person one's love. Here I go again, the romantic me...Seriously, this note touched me. Virginia Woolf sacrificed her life since she knew that she would experience great depression again or let me say,mental illness and this would hinder her husband from doing what he loved most--writing for he would be bound to her.

Everybody wishes to find great love, fortunate for those who find it because not all of us will...

unlucky me...but..

Today is one of my unlucky days. At this moment, I'm furious about the thing that had happened to me an hour or so ago and maybe about myself for being so ninny. Right now, I want to holler until my throat will get hoarse. I want to break and smash something. I want to run for miles and be done until I feel the weigh on my limbs. Most of all, I want to be in a serene place where I can only hear birds tweeting, water flowing, grass dancing and wind touching my face. I want to lie down in a place where I'm just all alone.

I've never been late for almost 11 months, until now. I'm exasperated not just because it affected my incentive but the thought that I would be able to say to myself that I've never been tardy for a year is my ultimate goal...until now...I feel so demotivated and I even want to resign. I'm just too angry about myself. It makes me think if this is Karma or what...God is playing with me? I know that everything happens for a reason. Maybe he has a reason, maybe this is not meant for me. There are times even though how much you give effort to get something but if it not really given to you, if it is really not meant for you...then this will just turn into ashes. Right now, it's so hard for me to accept that I made this kind of mistake. It's hard for me to fathom that this is not for me. I've calculated and did everything but still this unfortunate event happened. With my attitude towards life, failure is not in my vocabulary. So long as I can avoid it, I'll do everything I can.

I know, I have to start accepting things....I know there is a good reason for this...I know that he has a better plan...I know everything will be better soon...I hope it will just come sooner...

10 things I hate about you....

Sunday..a stormy day...

There was a storm yesterday so there was nothing to do but to stay at home and do my own thing like sleeping, watching dvd and eating...

It was sometime last night when I browsed my dvd's because I wanted to watch an American movie...by the way, I just finished watching a Korean drama, Dalja's Spring..that was why..I wanted to hear something English...hehehe! While browsing, I found this movie--'Ten things I hate about you'. I stared at the copy of this movie and it took me awhile to decide that I'm going to watch it. I watched this movies,ages ago... I was in high school, I think...Anyway, this is one of my favorite movies.

When I started watching it, memories gushing into me...it brought me back to the time where I was high school and was so full of energy to discover the world. It was a little bit funny because the casts were so young then and it made me feel that this was such an old movie. Then it sinked in to me, Heath Ledger, one of the casts died months ago and in the movie he was brimming with life. He was gorgeous, he was smiling and he was just so great while acting his role. I couldn't believe that his life just ended that way. It made me feel a little bit blue and it made me realize that life is so short...Well, I like the story so I continued watching it...When I heard the songs that were played in the movie, I remembered that I loved their soundtrack. I even remembered the lyrics.I recalled the best part of the movie. It was when Kat, Julia Stiles, read the poem, 10 things I hate about you. Here it goes...

TEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,

and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all.

This poem made me sigh years ago, then I read it again just now and it still makes me sigh....haaayyy...so sweet like candy..hahaha! I am such a hopeless romantic that sometimes it made me laugh...

Hanging out with the Angels...

Friday night....At weng's crib

It was Friday night. I had to meet the angels (Weng, Ayka and Nancy) at 11:00 PM in Globe Tower, my previous job's building. We decided to hang out together since we hadn't seen each other for a while and it would be Weng's last week as a single. Next week,Saturday, she will get married and I know that some things will change. Even though, I would have an exam the next day but for me that night...the get together was too precious. I didn't want to miss it. Anyway, Weng and I had dinner together while waiting for our friends, Ayka and Nancy, in one of our hang out places in Globe tower. After their arrival, we decided to go to Weng's condo since I have to study. KJ (Kill joy)...Friday night and I would have to study...grrrr....

the ANGELS..

The name ANGELS started when all of us worked in the same company years ago...It is vague for me why we became ANGELS. I think it was because of Chocok's our 'kuya' or elder brother in our office and we were called Chocok's Angels since we were always with him and he some kinda took care of us. Anyway, the angels are Ayka, Weng, Nancy, Grace and I...but last Friday night, unfortunately Grace was not with us since she was busy.

I present to you the angels who were with me last Friday. Even though Grace was not with us, still we had a wonderful time but it would have been better if she were with us...

This is AYKA...

Ayka is the eldest..hehehe! Well, she's the eldest but sometimes she seems to be the youngest. She's young at heart. She likes to watch cartoons and she likes to play computer games.

Friday night..She was dead tired because she has a part time job and she is a Team Leader--so much work for her..Her eyes were drooping when she talked to us..(giggle)

This is NANCY...

If Ayka is the eldest, this is our baby...She is the youngest in Angels and she has the most beautiful smile. We usually joke around that 'she is now a lady'. She improved a lot. She wears make up now and she dresses up like a young lady...(hahaha!)

Friday night...as usual, we teased her about being a 'lady' and we asked her if she has a love life already...I think she's the persona in NEVER BEEN KISSED!

Lastly, this is WENG...

Weng is going to tie the knot this Saturday with Akong, who just came back from the states for the ceremony. I'm so excited for her. She and I have almost the same personality. We are perfectionist, cranky at times (hahaha), opinionated and so on...well, we are virgos..

Friday night...We hanged out in her place. She rented a condo unit for the mean time since her condo is not yet ready. We talked about the things that she planned to do the next day since she was going to give a surprise lunch for her future hubby....She is so in love...and blooming..like a flower in spring.

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The night with the angels...

Now that you know the angels... I'm going to tell you what happened...this is it...I was a little bit nervous, I would have an exam next day and I hadn't studied yet. The worst things was, I was tired and I wanted to sleep. I took down notes but later on, my mind was nowhere to be found...So, I asked Nancy to study for me..Well, to take down notes for me so that I could read them on my way to my school. Well, she did it and I found the notes on the table when I woke up the next day. Isn't she so nice?

Let's go back to our night...we talked about our angst..as usual..We talked about the people around us, our job and again our angst...hatred...then we ended up praising and complimenting ourselves (nagbuhat ba ng bangko...) hahaha!

Weng, Ayka and Nancy...I took the picture using my phone..Thank God..The photo is good. It doesn't show their flaws..I mean eyebags....hahaha! They look well rested..

Weng, Ayka and I...I like our colors...Spring colors..pink, green and yellow..We joked around that we should wear these kind of colors since it would give us good photo.

Nancy and I...our get-together would not be complete without her...I would feel sad if she were not attend any of our gatherings...I like to piss her off and tease her...(hahaha!). She's like a younger sister to me.

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To the angels,

I know that I've been so busy these past few months maybe a year now and I'm sorry that sometimes I don't have much time to spend with you. You are one of my treasures. ANGELS--coming into my life is one most precious things that happened into me..Though we don't spend much time together, I know that you will always be here for me. If there were things that I've done that upset you, then thank you for understanding...You know that I'll always be here for you.

Angels forever....even though time will come that we will have our own lives...

LOVE yah!

Krizz

P.S.

sounds so cheesy. It gives me goosebumps...