taking a new step

These past few days, I've been nostalgic. I even scanned all the pictures of my close friends in my computer. Duh! emo mode. The days that I spent alone in my apartment especially during afternoons made me feel a little bit lonely and made me wish that we would be sitting in one of our favorite coffee shops, sipping coffee and talking about anything under the sun.


Less than a month from now, I'll be leaving Manila. I don't know if I'll leave for good or temporarily. Who knows, I might be back in May.  This is the first time that I don't have a definite plan on what I'm going to do. The only thing that I'm sure of is I'm going to have one hell of a summer fun. I'm looking forward to start my summer but then a part of me a little bit hesitant because I know I'll miss Manila and the things it bring and of course, my friends.


It's not quite easy to say goodbye. It makes me a little bit emotional and it makes me feel that anytime soon my eyes will be filled with tears. I always have this feeling when it comes to my friends. Maybe because my life always evolves with them. I can sometimes say that I'm more attached to them than to my own family. Funny thing, right? I even figured out why. 

Books

I love reading books and everyone knows that I can't live without one but  these past few years were quite different. My high school friends might be shocked if they're reading this. Yes, it's true. I couldn't find time or the urge to read books with the exception of few renowned books like Twilight Saga and The Alchemist. It's been months since I told myself that I would read again. It's my dream to read as many books as I can but then I think it will always remain as a dream. It's quite expensive to buy books which I'll only read for a day or two if I want to but then the satisfaction that I get after reading can't be paid off. Maybe someday this will come true, if I'll marry someone who runs a bookstore or something. *wink* 


One afternoon, I went to a mall with one of my friends and she wanted to go to a bookstore to buy something. I went with her and we went to the different sections of the store. As usual, I ended up browsing some books in the literary works section. I saw the books of Paulo Coelho on a shelf then something caught my eye, the book that I had been longing to read--One hundred years of solitude. As my eyes roamed, I saw a lot of books that I wanted to read. I picked them out from the shelves and the last thing I noticed was my hands were full of them already, I could barely hold them. I was overwhelmed that I forgot to consider that books are expensive. One by one, I chose which book to buy and finally I settled on buying the book of Paulo Coelho and Gabriel Garcia Marquez. I kept on telling myself that I should not be greedy. I had to stick with these two books and buy for more if I am done reading. 


Now, I'm starting to read 'Like the Flowing River'.  I get teary-eyed and smiles while reading it. I'm halfway through and I try to read it slowly for I think it will be better that way. The book is a collection of short stories and reflections. Before I read this book, I always think of Paolo Coelho as someone who is extraordinary but then I realize that he is just like any other person here on earth. He's so real. He did a lot of funny things that others might think of it as stupid.  This book let me have a fascinating glimpse inside the life of P. Coelho. A must read!

september

It's been a long time since I last blogged. It's now September and many things happened already.

1. my last term in theory ended a week ago

2. i already celebrated my birthday last week

3. my friends and I had pre-bday celebration last week

4. I went to my grandma's place last weekend since it has been months since I last went home.

Yes, many things happened already and I felt like I was in a rollercoaster ride. I fell for someone and I want to think that I'm not into him anymore. I realized there are things that are not meant to be but then I can say that it was a wonderful experience. Things happen for a reason.

Well, I also found friends---real friends. Friends who made me feel better when I'm down, who made me laugh when I'm sad, who listened to me when I whined. I'm thankful that I am blessed with friends. Friends who are always there for me.

random thoughts..

Its been weeks since I last posted something in this blog. Well, here's the summary of the things I did and the events I experienced...

1. My office friend, Noreen, said goodbye to us yesterday..She's going to start another chapter of her life.
TO NOREEN:
Thanks for the company for these past few years..See you soon if you are not so busy and if I have time..;)

2. I like someone..oh..oh..I don't easily like someone so this is a good news for me. It means I'm not abnormal..Looking forward to see him every week.

3. I almost vomitted last Saturday though I wasn't drunk. It's been ages since I last went to a bar and drink.

4. I quit my job--the part time job. I can't do many things at once and I'm so dead tired already.

I think these past few weeks were exciting and maybe there might be more to come. Live LIFE..

year 2009

This year 2009 will be one of my most important years. If God permits, I will finish my studies and hopefully I will find a job abroad because I really want to travel and experience new culture. This year seems to be my turning point. I have to play my cards right. I have to plan and make the right decisions or else I will have a terrible year.

Last night, I wasn't able to sleep because my thoughts were wandering. I can't deny the fact that I'm scared because I know I have to make decisions that can change my life. There will be many changes that will happen soon and I hope I can cope with it. It scares the hell out of me because it's my call. Nobody has to make decisions for me and nobody has to take the responsibilities except me if I screw up. The things that keeps me going are knowing that if I will succeed, everything will be better and knowing that God will help me no matter what. He's the only one who can ease my worries and bring me happiness.

God, I really need your help.

WONDERING..

I'm just wondering...What kind of feeling does one have if he/she is in love?

Miss listening to English and Filipino songs...

These past few months, I've been so crazy listening to soundtracks of different Asian dramas that I've watched. Well, if you're going to open my laptop, the playlist that you can find in my mp3 player will be Asian songs..Korean, Japanese and Taiwanese songs and I don't even understand them. I just like the rhythm and melody and they are so pleasing to my ears.

Early this morning I logged on in magic 89.9 and listened to the music they were playing. Then something happened...I missed listening to English songs and I found out that I missed a lot of things. The songs were new to my ears and I felt good listening to it. It just amazed me. I'm not regretting listening to bunch of songs that I don't understand since it makes me appreciate Asian thingy but then it's just too bad to overdo it. Months ago, I was so curious about anything that was Asian..their language, their drama (tv series), their culture and fashion. I was so into it and I think I still am..waah! Anyway, it's so nice to know different cultures. It makes me realize how great and colorful Asia is. So beautiful that I hope I will be lucky enough to have a chance to explore it.