Christmas Wish list!

Books

I love reading books and everyone knows that I can't live without one but  these past few years were quite different. My high school friends might be shocked if they're reading this. Yes, it's true. I couldn't find time or the urge to read books with the exception of few renowned books like Twilight Saga and The Alchemist. It's been months since I told myself that I would read again. It's my dream to read as many books as I can but then I think it will always remain as a dream. It's quite expensive to buy books which I'll only read for a day or two if I want to but then the satisfaction that I get after reading can't be paid off. Maybe someday this will come true, if I'll marry someone who runs a bookstore or something. *wink* 


One afternoon, I went to a mall with one of my friends and she wanted to go to a bookstore to buy something. I went with her and we went to the different sections of the store. As usual, I ended up browsing some books in the literary works section. I saw the books of Paulo Coelho on a shelf then something caught my eye, the book that I had been longing to read--One hundred years of solitude. As my eyes roamed, I saw a lot of books that I wanted to read. I picked them out from the shelves and the last thing I noticed was my hands were full of them already, I could barely hold them. I was overwhelmed that I forgot to consider that books are expensive. One by one, I chose which book to buy and finally I settled on buying the book of Paulo Coelho and Gabriel Garcia Marquez. I kept on telling myself that I should not be greedy. I had to stick with these two books and buy for more if I am done reading. 


Now, I'm starting to read 'Like the Flowing River'.  I get teary-eyed and smiles while reading it. I'm halfway through and I try to read it slowly for I think it will be better that way. The book is a collection of short stories and reflections. Before I read this book, I always think of Paolo Coelho as someone who is extraordinary but then I realize that he is just like any other person here on earth. He's so real. He did a lot of funny things that others might think of it as stupid.  This book let me have a fascinating glimpse inside the life of P. Coelho. A must read!

2009 is almost over

2009--not a best year for me. It's one of my most challenging years in life. I always think that once 2009 will be over my life will be better. I hope I'm right. Oh!I think I am. My intuition says so. Twenty-0-nine, the year that I don't mind saying goodbye. It's not that bad though. There are a lot of good things happened to me. Quite a lot if I'm going to think about it. I just recent the fact that this year I wasn't able to make decision freely because there were a lot of things to consider and I felt my hands were somewhat tied. This year is kind of a breaking point to me. I have had enough. What I want is to be free but then I have OBLIGATIONS. The thing that I'm not so fond of. Obligations and how to face it in an optimistic manner are part of growing up. Knowing that I don't handle obligations well and big responsibilities scare a hell out of me makes me say that there are a lot of things that I have to learn for the years to come.


Twenty-one days from now and twenty-0-nine will be over. I scanned my long-ago blog posts and I stumbled on my christmas wish lists and sort of New Year's resolution blogs. I found out that more than half of my list and resolution did not happen. Too bad, right?


One of the things that I remember writing is to travel. What the heck..I can't even go to Baguio or to a beach somewhere in Batangas. Oh! There's one thing--spend less and something like about having savings? So funny! I don't even have a single centavo in my account. Yeah, yeah, yeah..I get it. I was so busy these past few months. I could hardly breathe. I also had a lot of payables. Excuses? Well, it's a good thing that I stumbled on them just to make me realize how useless my list and resolution are. I guess I just have to include these things in my list/resolution/plan again for next year. BTW, so excited to make one.


At the end of the year, we always question our self, "Did I live my life or Did life simply pass me by?".

Things I'll miss in grad studies..

There are things that I love and like to do. These past few days were great for me. I was able to do the things that I want and like. I'm just so glad that for once I'm not rushing and beating a deadline. Yes, it's fun to be this way but then there are things that I'm sure I'm going to miss. This is life. We cannot have everything we want.

1. I'll surely miss my classmates/friends especially the things that we do during Saturdays..After class dinner and drinking. LOL!

--For so many terms that I've stayed in school, I think last term was the best term despite the fact that there were a lot of papers to do. Friendships blossom and I get closer and closer to my classmates. We finally get to know each other well. Why is it when you only have limited time to be really together is also the time where you have to depart? hahaha!

2. I'll miss the adrenaline rush when there's a paper due and the feeling when you've beaten the red light.

3. I'll miss Andrew Building and my professors who made our life miserable..;-) kidding!

This is just one chapter of my life and it's almost time to end this chapter. This journey is so memorable to me--the tears, stress, challenges and laughters. I feel so great that I've reach one of my goals but the most interesting part is the steps that I took and the process that I've been through. It taught me a lot and it made me a better person.

Until then...looking forward to my next goal in life!

Crazy about HITMAN REBORN

YES! I'm crazy about Hitman Reborn these past few days and since I don't have any school stuff to do anymore, I fill my afternoons by watching this anime. It's quite fun to watch this due to the wild actions they have and the family values they show. They reiterate that our friends are our family. Family is not all about having same blood running through our veins. It's how we regard each other than bind us. It may be so cheesy but then I think it's true. There are reasons why we meet people that we later on called friends. Either we bring some changes on them or the other way around. Friends coming in our life has always have a purpose. We may not have realize what we are doing in their life and what they can do to us.

Friends--Some of them may stay and some of them may leave. Others accompany us in our journey and others are a mere passer by but having them around even in just a few minutes, hours, days and years make this world a better place to stay.

What male Katekyo Hitman Reborn character are you

YourResult

You are...Takeshi!You're outgoing, adventurous, and friendly. You're very loyal and you'd do anything for your friends. As a good person at heart, or all around nice guy, you'd rather get hurt yourself then let anyone else come to harm. You might act absent minded sometimes but you know when it's time to get serious. Go you, you're the nicest guy in the worldThere are things that I love and like to do.

These past few weeks and months

This term is my last term in school. Finally last Friday, my oral comprehensive exam was done and I am now qualified to apply for graduation. YAHOO!

These past few weeks or let's say months were so hectic. So after our oral exam, we hanged out in one of our classmates house. I will really miss Andrew Bldg, DEAL office and my classmates. OH! my professors too. After all the tears and laughters, everything is almost over. We are just waiting for our graduation day. I feel so glad these past few days because I don't have to worry about deadlines and research papers anymore. This kind of thing seems so new to me. It's so funny that I don't really know what to do after my work. Since I'm now done with my studies, I can certainly do the things that I've been planning for quite some time. I hope almost all of my plans will be pushed through. I'm so excited for 2010. I feel like it will be an awesome year because many things will surely change. SO EXCITED and HAPPY!

Here are the pictures we took after our exams...

Happy moments

Yesterday was so stressful for me. The waiting was unbearable. I thought someone would just grab my heart or stop my world. I've been under stress for quite some time now but then yesterday was incomparable and one of the happiest moments of my life. It was yesterday that the result of my written comprehensive exam was announced. I couldn't bear to go to DLSU just to check the result so I chose to call the office instead. I think it would be better if I received the news over the phone than in person. My classmates and I were edgy because the result of the exam would determine if we were fit to proceed to the oral exam--the last exam that we have to take and its result will then be our ticket for graduation. All we need to know was if we passed or failed. Thank god, one of our classmates went to our department's office and asked the secretary about the result. Fortunately, all of us passed. Well, not really all of us but me and my circle of friends. One-third of the examinees failed. Quite scary, right? It was really nerve-racking. If I failed in that exam, I would surely feel bad and guilty at the same time. Bad for the wrong decisions I've done these past few weeks and guilty for not giving my 100% because I could have resigned. It's a good thing that everything is over for now because tomorrow will be a very very long day.

Good luck to me and my other friends who passed for tomorrow will be our oral exam.

Good luck to those people who will take the exam again next term. Hope it will be your last take.

MISS BLOGGING..

okay..I'm so caught up with so many things these past few days, weeks and months that I forgot to blog. grrr! just remembered today. Do I have a selective amnesia? I have so many things to blog that I don't even know where to start. I think I just have to summarize everything and I'll get back to it two weeks from now after my comprehensive exam. Gosh! got to do a lot of things today and the rest of the days to come. This is driving me crazy and it's making me nervous. Hope to blog soooonnn. So many things to write--about me, friends, school and work.

september

It's been a long time since I last blogged. It's now September and many things happened already.

1. my last term in theory ended a week ago

2. i already celebrated my birthday last week

3. my friends and I had pre-bday celebration last week

4. I went to my grandma's place last weekend since it has been months since I last went home.

Yes, many things happened already and I felt like I was in a rollercoaster ride. I fell for someone and I want to think that I'm not into him anymore. I realized there are things that are not meant to be but then I can say that it was a wonderful experience. Things happen for a reason.

Well, I also found friends---real friends. Friends who made me feel better when I'm down, who made me laugh when I'm sad, who listened to me when I whined. I'm thankful that I am blessed with friends. Friends who are always there for me.

so distracted

I'm so distracted this term. I'm struggling with my grades and I can't just concentrate. Those who know me, might know the reason as well. Well, the feeling is some kind of new to me so sometimes I just couldn't figure out on what to do.

random thoughts..

Its been weeks since I last posted something in this blog. Well, here's the summary of the things I did and the events I experienced...

1. My office friend, Noreen, said goodbye to us yesterday..She's going to start another chapter of her life.
TO NOREEN:
Thanks for the company for these past few years..See you soon if you are not so busy and if I have time..;)

2. I like someone..oh..oh..I don't easily like someone so this is a good news for me. It means I'm not abnormal..Looking forward to see him every week.

3. I almost vomitted last Saturday though I wasn't drunk. It's been ages since I last went to a bar and drink.

4. I quit my job--the part time job. I can't do many things at once and I'm so dead tired already.

I think these past few weeks were exciting and maybe there might be more to come. Live LIFE..

summer is over...

Last Monday, it was officially our first day of class and summer finally ends. There were many things happened, to me and my friends.

Last summer...

• I found out that one of my friends is going to have a baby but then after a couple of weeks, bad news came. There would be no baby anymore since the "baby" didn't have a heartbeat. All of us feel so sad about what happened but then everything happens for a reason.
• I was so lazy. I didn't open my books or my laptop. In short, I didn't study. I told myself before summer that I have to start studying but then I ended up watching soap operas and tv series.
• I planned to go home to my grandmother's house but since I had so many commitments, I wasn't able to do it. Part of me is pissed off since I will have no time to go home after summer. For the next few months, I'm sure I will be stuck here in the city because of my hectic schedule.
• My sister and I fought. I'm a little bit guilty about the things I've said to her but then deep inside I know she deserves it. Guilty or not, I didn't regret what I did but it irritated me that I didn't handle it well. I should have handled the situation calmly. I still have so many things to learn when it comes to handling emotions.
• Many things happened in our office and most of them were not so pleasing. I don't want to think about those things because they give me mix emotions.

Summer is indeed over. I hope the next one will be better than this summer. More time to spend with my family, friends and myself.

MY 100

1. Last beverage -water
2. Last phone call – Koren (yesterday afternoon)
3. Last text message –Astrah (about the picture that I saw in facebook)
4. Last song you listened to –Korean song(forgot the title)
5. Last time you cried –last night while watching dvd

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice -yes
7. Been cheated on? - no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? – yes
9. Lost someone special? -yes
10. Been depressed? -yes
11. Been wasted? –yes

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. pink
13. light green
14. baby blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Have you made new friends this year - yes
16. Fallen out of love – yes
17. Laughed until you cried -yes (last tuesday because of wrong grammar--salbahe ko!)
18. Met someone who changed you - nope
19. Found out who your true friends were -yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you –yes
21. Kissed anyone on your top friends list? -nope

TRUTH:

23. How many kids do you want to have – two (twins)
24. Do you have any pets - had dog after college graduation
25. Do you want to change your name - A BIG YES...
26. What did you do for your last birthday – stayed at home..i think...can't remember
27. What time did you wake up today – 3:40 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night –watched dvd
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for – to graduate
30. Last time you saw your father - summer 2008
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life –my temperament
32. What are you listening to right now – my officemate's ramblings
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? – my naughty (kid) student
36. What's your real name - Kristine
37. Relationship Status – Single
38. Zodiac sign – Virgo
39. Male or female – female
40. Elementary –St. Mary's College and Agape Christian Academy
41. Middle School – N/A
42. High school –Silliman University High School
43. Hair color – Black/Brown
44. Long or short – Long
45. Height - 5'4 1/2
46. Do you have a crush on someone? –yes..he's been my crush ever since...
47. What do you like about yourself? - broad minded..think so..
48. Piercings – Two
49. Tattoos – in my dreams only
50. Righty or lefty - Righty!

FIRSTS

51. First surgery – my right wrist
52. First piercing – I can't remember...think around 4 years old
53. First tattoo –just wishing
54. First best friend –Faith Emily Ang (elementary best friend)
55. First sport you joined –SOCCER
56. First pet –dog
57. First vacation –can't remember..I was too young back then
58. First concert –maybe violin or piano concert..either of the two
59. First crush –elementary crush..
60. First alcoholic drink –GILBEY's..I think..or beer?

RIGHT NOW:

61. Eating – nope
62. Drinking –nope
63. I'm about to - leave the office in a few minutes
64. Listening to –nothing
65. Waiting for –this to finish

YOUR FUTURE :

66. Want kids? – After marriage
67. Want to get married? yeah
68. Future Career -entrepreneur/teacher

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

69. Lips or eyes - eyes
70. Hugs or kisses - Kisses
71. Shorter or taller - Taller
72. Older or Younger – Older
73. Romantic or spontaneous - Spontaneous
74. Nice stomach or nice arms - stomach
75. Tattoos or piercings – tattoos... aaay...PIERCING pala..
76. Sensitive or loud - neither
77. Hook-up or relationship - relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant – neither

HAVE YOU EVER :

79. Kissed a stranger - nope
80. Drunk hard liquor - Yes
81. Lost glasses/contact - almost
82. Sex on first date - No
83. Broken someone's heart – Maybe
84. Had your own heart broken - yes
85. Been arrested? - No
86. Turned someone down - Yes
87. Cried when someone died - Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a boy? - Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself - Yes
90. Miracles – yes..it always happen
91. Love at first sight? - I think so..
92. Heaven – yes
93. Santa Claus –nope
94. Kissing on the first date?-it depends on who the guy is..lol!
95. Angels –yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? -not really
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Never
98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yes.
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? -my eyeglasses or contacts
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? - what do you think?

I was tagged by a friend in facebook to do this "MY 100" but instead of posting it in facebook, I rather have it here. Answering this "MY 100" was fun. It made me think of some things that I've never think of.

year 2009

This year 2009 will be one of my most important years. If God permits, I will finish my studies and hopefully I will find a job abroad because I really want to travel and experience new culture. This year seems to be my turning point. I have to play my cards right. I have to plan and make the right decisions or else I will have a terrible year.

Last night, I wasn't able to sleep because my thoughts were wandering. I can't deny the fact that I'm scared because I know I have to make decisions that can change my life. There will be many changes that will happen soon and I hope I can cope with it. It scares the hell out of me because it's my call. Nobody has to make decisions for me and nobody has to take the responsibilities except me if I screw up. The things that keeps me going are knowing that if I will succeed, everything will be better and knowing that God will help me no matter what. He's the only one who can ease my worries and bring me happiness.

God, I really need your help.

ranting about my friends rants..

"Being an adult: TOTALLY overrated. I mean seriously, don't be fooled by the hot shoes and great sex and no parents anywhere telling you what to do. Being an adult is responsibility. Responsibility really does suck. Really, REALLY sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. And if you're training to be a surgeon, holding a human heart in your hands... Hello! Talk about responsibility! Kinda makes bikes and cookies look really really good, doesn't it? The scariest part about responsibility... When you skrew up and let it slip right through your fingers. Responsibility. It really does suck. Unfortunately once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away. It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences. " --- meredith grey

I read my friend's blog [Grace] few minutes ago and I stumbled on this quote from Grey's anatomy--one of our favorite tv series. My friend is ranting about stuffs and so am I. Well, responsibility really sucks! I think, Grace and I feel the same way about things though she really has a lot of responsibilities compare to me but still they are responsibilities and sometimes I feel like they are choking me alive.

To Grace:

Beh, we really need a break. Good thing that we will have no work this Friday and Tuesday. Ayka invited me to go with them this coming Monday. They are going to have night swimming in Antipolo but I don't know if I'm going. I'm still thinking about it. Ayka told me to go out and have some good times but then I'm too lazy to do it. I think this is where some of my problems lie, laziness and so in love in hanging out in my apartment. So, what are you going to do this weekend? I just realized that I didn't really have plans for the next few days because I am so hook in watching BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS...waaahhh! Any plans for angels?

Krizz

To ANGELS: Aja! Chayo! FIGHTING!

EDITORIAL - Growing illiteracy

Once upon a time Asians came to the Philippines to avail themselves of top-quality education. Today, despite free, compulsory elementary and high school education, an estimated 5.2 million Filipinos are illiterate. The country also has one of the highest dropout rates in Asia, worse than the situation in Indonesia and even Vietnam

These disheartening facts come from the Department of Education, whose officials want stronger literacy programs for both youths and adults. DepEd officials warn that the growing illiteracy rate would take its toll on the economy. Illiteracy and the slide in the quality of Philippine education are already taking their toll on national competitiveness, as shown in numerous international surveys.

Local executives must show leadership in improving the nation’s literacy level. A literacy mapping project undertaken by the Department of the Interior and Local Government among fifth and sixth class municipalities – the most economically backward in the country – showed that literacy programs were not making much impact. DILG officials observed that literacy programs were not given priority by certain local governments.

Education programs have rarely attracted politicians’ interest. Some politicians, believing that patronage thrives on poverty and poor education, deliberately shelve programs to raise literacy levels and improve the quality of education in their jurisdictions. In some underdeveloped areas, there are simply not enough funds for literacy programs.

But the problem cannot be left to fester. In the global economy, quality education is indispensable. Development is accelerated in countries that give priority to educating their citizens. Emerging economic powers including China and India are investing heavily in public education, providing their people with the tools they need to excel in a highly competitive global environment. Countries that do not treat education with the same urgency risk being left behind. In the Philippines, educators themselves are sounding the alarm. It would be folly to ignore the warning. - (Philstar News Service, www.philstar.com)

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Isn't this so ironic? After reading this article, it just made me so sad and pissed off at the same time. Filipinos have to do some actions now. We don't have to only rely on our government but we also have to do something. If our situation will be worst 20 or so years from now, then it will be our fault..each and everyone of us.

For those Filipinos who are so selfish and corrupt to think of their country. I know that corruption is everywhere and it can't be totally be erradicated but then "wag naman masyadong makapal ang mukha". They can at least give back something and not just always getting something from their country.

at last..weekend with friends

After all the things I've been through these past few weeks, now I have time to spend with my friends...

Saturday, 8:00PM or so

Weng's crib

• We [angels] are all excited that Weng is now having a baby. Wow! I can't believe it. It's really a miracle to have a baby.
• My friends and I played Wii. It was so exciting. It lingered in my mind for hours. I really love it. I hope I have one so that I wil just play everytime I have a free time but I think it's impossible to happen and I don't think it's a good idea 'coz I will just keep on hanging out in my apartment. I think that's one of the problems why my social life is going down, I love my place so much that it becomes my favorite hang out place. hahaha! So lazy to go out.

Sunday (Lunch at Cravings, Shang-rila)

Yes, we are supposedly have to have lunch in Craving but then we (Angels) arrived around 3p.m. hahaha! It's snack time already. Well, blame it to Wii. We didn't want to leave Weng's place because we wanted to finish the game.

It was great that we were able to meet our former officemates. It was like a reunion. Many things had happened on each and every one of us. There are some of us who got married, got pregnant, got better carreer and some of us, still remains single. It was a great thing to know that everybody is doing well (that's what I think...).

After meeting our former officemates, we went to Starbucks (forever...walang kamatayan na starbucks) to hang out for couple of minutes before saying goodbye. We talked about "US" since it will be weeks again before we're going to see each other.

To wrap it up, my weekend was awesome! I'm glad that I went out and I spent time with my friends. Sometimes, we take our friends for granted and sometimes we are not sensitive enough to know their feelings. For my friends, though we have differences and we have shortcomings but then I'm happy that we still remain friends.

BEATING the red LIGHT...Summer 2009...here I come..

Research paper---two days in the making



Well, I just submitted my last requirement for this term last night at exactly 9:00. My partner and I though we beat the red light. We thought that so long as it's still April 15, we can still meet the deadline..Sad to say but when we submitted our paper, we found out that the deadline was 5pm. I think she announced it but we were not able to hear it. I hope my prof will still consider our paper. Looking back on the efforts that we did just to complete the paper on time makes me think that it was amazing. I can't believe that we made a research paper in two days...TWO DAYS..Wow! I feel like a superhuman..hahaha! I don't know how I stayed calm while I was making the paper. Maybe it's because I'm always cramming and now I get used to it. The term is over and finally, I can start my summer vacay...



Lesson learned: Don't cram but I think I will never learn...a bad habit...



SUMMER 2009..time to party!



PLANS for the summer



This coming weekend:

• Overnyt at Weng's house this Satuday


• Lunch with SISA people this Sunday

For the rest of the SUMMER

• Go out of town with friends [La Union?]


• Spend time with the Angels and Krn & Noreen [contact HS and university friends?]


• Have a date with Quirk et al [dating a grammar book?]


• Go to a beach or resort

Hope my plans will be pushed through..

random thoughts

The happiest people are the ones with a lot of options but then there are times that the options that we have are not what we truly want. So, we ended choosing the one that does not genuinely make us happy.

There are times in life that we have to accept what we can't and as we grow older there are more things that we can't have and more words that we can't say. As we grow older there are more times that we are alone and there are lesser people who take care of us. There are more unreasonable things that happen and all of these make us grow up. We have to for us to save our sanity.

wish

I wish I will feel better.
--I don't really know what's going on with me. I feel like I'm going to be depressed.

WONDERING..

I'm just wondering...What kind of feeling does one have if he/she is in love?

cold feet?

"If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be." --James Russell Miller

Last trimester was a kinda traumatic experience for me. Looking back at it, I still couldn't fathom how I did all the requirements my prof gave me. I could say that it made me feel like a real and true student. Well, I was a slacker back then but due to maturity I'm now more responsible when it comes to studying( I think so...). That time of my life is over and I'm glad that I am able to survive that appaling trimester. I don't have to see my prof who gave me a hard time. Thank god for that. It was a challenge and part of me is glad that I took the challenge but then I don't ever wish to do it again. I think I might not survive...traumatized..hahaha! Well, that's what I thought...I thought I will not encounter my scary prof again but then there's a possibility that things might not go well next trimester since there's a big chance that I really have to get the course that my scary prof is going to handle next term. I still have time to change my fate though. I just have to make my convincing power and charm work and hope my temper will not ruin my plans.

Months from now will be the start of my first term and if my plan fails, I can say that I am doom. Gosh! I'm sure I will have endless sleepless nights and worries. I can imagine the awful things that might happen to me and to my classmates. It's kinda funny if I'm going to think about it. Funny to think that everybody will be nervous and everybody will be dreading their class. Funny to think that all will look terrible.

Am I up to the challenge? I'm not sure. Maybe not. It scares the hell out of me but then thinking about it all over again and again makes me realize that maybe I should take the challenge. Enroll in the course that my scary prof will handle. Part of me thinks that I will learn a lot from her. Sometimes my classmates joke around and tell me that I'm one of the unluckiest person in our class. In a way, yes..I'm unlucky but I did learn something...just in a hard way.

I'm crossing my fingers that something good will happen. If not, then I will just cross the bridge when I get there. Maybe it will be a good experience for me and maybe it will make me a better person than I am now.

Miss listening to English and Filipino songs...

These past few months, I've been so crazy listening to soundtracks of different Asian dramas that I've watched. Well, if you're going to open my laptop, the playlist that you can find in my mp3 player will be Asian songs..Korean, Japanese and Taiwanese songs and I don't even understand them. I just like the rhythm and melody and they are so pleasing to my ears.

Early this morning I logged on in magic 89.9 and listened to the music they were playing. Then something happened...I missed listening to English songs and I found out that I missed a lot of things. The songs were new to my ears and I felt good listening to it. It just amazed me. I'm not regretting listening to bunch of songs that I don't understand since it makes me appreciate Asian thingy but then it's just too bad to overdo it. Months ago, I was so curious about anything that was Asian..their language, their drama (tv series), their culture and fashion. I was so into it and I think I still am..waah! Anyway, it's so nice to know different cultures. It makes me realize how great and colorful Asia is. So beautiful that I hope I will be lucky enough to have a chance to explore it.

struggles

These past few days have been a little bit hard. The world's economy is not so good or shall I say getting bad that some companies closed already and many people didn't have a job anymore. Some of my friends are affected by the crisis that has been going on. Though I'm not really affected by this phenomenon but soon I think I will be. It makes me feel bad because most of them need their job badly because they have more responsibilities in life. I know problems come in our way so that we will become a better person and so that we will know our priorities in life. It also makes me think..what if I were them? I think if I would be in the same situation as them, I would take it as a blesing. I will be able to concentrate on my studies but then I will be broke. If I will be broke, I can still live but I really have to live as simple as I can. Maybe I will do some volunteer work since I have more time. I'm planning doing volunteer work as soon as I finish my studies. It's one of the things that I really want to do in this lifetime, to do somethign for others and maybe I can affect some of their lives. These past few days, I received a lot of bad news but then again I'm not directly involved in these news and then it further makes me realize how bless I am and it make me appreciate what I have. I have problems but my problems are the things that I have a control of. If I just worked harder, I don't think I will be facing these kind of things. I would not have failed in my evaluation and exam. I would have gotten better scores. It makes me feel disappointed. Though, I made efforts to have higher scores but then the reason I failed could be because I didn't give my best.

If I were to have a wish right now, I wish everything would be alright.

PETER PAN SYNDROME, do I have one?*******

blah..blah..blah..If anyone reads my blog sometimes they might say that I'm kinda mature person but I don't think so. I always complain and I'm scared to death to face responsibilities. Oh! I hate problems and I always want to be comfortable. I always want my life to be free of hassles. Sometimes, it makes me ask myself If I have Peter Pan syndrome. My mom once said that I have to know how to face my own problems maturely. It's just so hard to be a grown up. I know there are still so many issues going on in my head. I hope I know how to figure out each of them.

Here I go again..maybe I'm just thinking too much!

Touch my body...the other version

Gosh, this is one of the funniest video I've ever watched. It's so hilarious that I almost fell out of my chair. This video completes my day. hahaha! I hope you will love this.

This is the original lyrics of the song.

TOUCH MY BODY by Mariah Carey

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

[Chorus:]
If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my bidness
Like a Wendy Interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

[Chorus]

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

I'm gonna treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...

musing...

Last Wednesday, I got my braces. Now, I really look like Ugly Betty. I wear glasses and braces. I'm sure I look like a geeky person and I don't think many of us want to look like one. So, I will try my best to be diligent in putting on my contacts. Gosh! I'm too lazy to care for my appearance. hahaha! I don't want to put on my contacts early in the morning and I don't want to put on a little bit of make-up just to be presentable. I rather sleep than wake up early just to do these things every morning. Then it made me think, I really have to start caring.

BTW, this is my braces and its pink...hahaha!

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Speaking of CARE, I sometimes don't care and that's the truth. Even though many things is already happening around me, I usually have late reaction or there are times that I simply don't feel anything except when something bad happens to one of my closest friends but when it comes to myself, this kind of thing usually happens--not caring. Gosh! I think I'm a cold person. I don't exactly know when I started feeling this way. Maybe wayback when I was in high school, when I encountered several disappointments. I always don't expect something from someone or from anything that I do. I don't expect to excel and I don't expect to do things better than others 'cause I will just end up bitter and frustrated. Now, I realize that my life is a little bit chaotic since I don't really care much about it. I feel like I didn't do anything right these past few months and I'm dismayed. I thought everything will be alright but then I'm wrong. Either way, I will still feel disappointed--for myself or on the things surrounding me. Well, life is full of disappointments and it's part of growing up. It's just how we're going to handle the different situations that come along.

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The funny thing that makes me realize about these things are when my friends told me about their problems. Yesterday, I received text messages and online messages from my friends almost at the same time. They told me about their worries in life. One is worried about her performance in her office and her capabilities, two were worried about their studies, one is worried about someone's health and the other is regretting her decision. How about me? I am worried about them. The things that they said to me made me think that I should also worry about my studies and my performance in my company because I'm not doing well. It's like I'm a mediocre and a walking failure. So, today I said to myself that I have to aim high and that I have to do my best in everything not just in some things.

Missing soccer...

It's been years since I last played soccer. If I can remember it right, the last time I played was after my college graduation. I convinced my mom to allow me to go back to Dumaguete to process my school documents but at the back of my mind, the real reason that I went back was because I wanted to play soccer. I think leaving Dumaguete particulary Silliman is one my lowest point in life. I just really love that place and the people. I feel so comfortable and happy just thinking of the memories I have way back high school then college especially the time when I was in the field playing with my team mates.

Soccer...my favorite sport. I started playing it when I was in high school. It was just for fun, no pressure at all. Our coach treated us like babies. The real game started when I played soccer in college. I stopped playing when I was in my freshmen and sophomore years in college due to my course and also due to some personal reasons. I was in my junior year in college when I went back playing. Our coach taught me a lot of things--not just playing the game but building my character. I think, I've been more patient, considerate and persevere person because of soccer. Remembering the trainings and scolding that we've got from our coach makes me say that it is worth it. If I were to do one thing in my life all over again, I would like to play soccer again. It's the only thing that I can remember doing where I gave my 100%. Though, I was not so good in playing but at least I gave my everything. Our team standing was not one of the best and was so behind compared to our soccer men varsity but then we were fighters. We lost a lot of games and we won a few but it made me realize that it doesn't really matter if we were not the number one team. What matters most is we worked as a team and we did what we could. For me, it's alright to fail so long as I did my best. As I cruise down my memory lane, I remember that I miss some of my afternoon classes just to practice playing soccer. I could not bear to be absent in our afternoon soccer practices that I rather ditch my classes and my meeting with my friends. I like to smell again the scent of a newly cut grass and spend my afternoon in the field with a soccer ball. I want to experience this kind of thing again. Doing something that I love.


As days passed by, I came to realize that we have to follow our heart for us to find happiness and as I encountered different types of people, I can say that I'm still fortunate because I was able to do the things I want when I still studying in high school and college. Maybe that's why I always say that those were my "golden" years. As for the months and years to come, I will truly try my best to make more wonderful memories and to do the things that makes me happy. I only live once in this earth, I hope that I will be as carefree as I could be.

My student

I've been teaching Koreans for several years already. I started teaching kids and then now I'm teaching adults. I had wonderful time with kids because they are so trusting and participative. Anyway, now that I'm handling adults I find it interesting to have conversations with them about different topics. I learned a lot of things from them and I hope they learned something from me.

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One of my favorite students got married two months ago or so. In our class, he's funny and talkative. He really has a sense of humor. He can easily grasp the jokes that I cracked and the humor behind our dialogues. He's such a comic. These past few days, I kept on bugging him about his wedding picture and I made him promise to send it to me. So, yesterday he sent me these pictures which are so beautiful and dreamy. hahaha! I think these kind of pictures are one of every women's dreams--to capture love through photos. So cheesy...hahaha!

This is my favorite photo. It's so romantic--kissing under the rain..hahaha!

Though some might think that they're just photos but these kind of photos may make some people inspired and make those people who don't believe in love to believe again.

Lucky are those people who found love and good luck for those people who are still looking for love. As for me, I'm just happy to see people in love. I only want to be an observer at this moment and not a participant.

Single women's valentine's day

February 14th


Valentine's Day...Well, I was so busy. I had to meet different people. I had dates--my cousins and friends. It was still a date, right? Valentines is not just for those people who got lovers, it's for single people out there. It's time to be with our friends and family.


So, here's my valentines...


I spent more than half of my day in school. I had to go to school because of my classes. Oh! It was valentine's day and I was staring in a four walled corners of my room and listening to my professors' discussions. I felt a little bit bad because everybody was already enjoying their day while I was stuck with my classmates and professor discussing reading strategies and syllabus. What a day to spend. Well, I sensed that I'm not the only one who felt that way because I some of my classmates were restless and could not wait to get out of our classrooms. hahaha! Thank god! we didn't have a class in our last course which is grammatical structures...nobody wants to discuss grammar in a day like this, right?


After class, I met my cousins. We had pizza and spaghetti. Oh! I was bloated. We ordered many food and we were only three. We were together for less than three hours since I had to go somewhere. I had to go to my friend's place[Ayka] just to spend time with her and Nancy. She was so busy so we decided to have coffee instead and since I planned to see Weng before midnight together with Nancy, we had to live early because of the heavy traffic. While we were having coffee, we tried to catch each others lives though we didn't have much time to talk about every single details that happened to us. When we were about to meet Weng, we decided to call it off because I was tired and so is she. I think, I've been all over metro Manila that day. Though, my meeting with Weng was not push through, I still decided to go home early because I was too scared to commute from Quezon city to Alabang alone in the middle of the night. I'm a little bit skittish now because I was harassed months ago. It's just that I don't want to have that kind of experience because it makes me angry and hateful.


I arrived around midnight and when I reached my apartment, I'm alone and sometimes I just want it to be that way--alone. No one to talk to. I turned on my dvd and watched something that I already watched months ago.


Then Valentines day was over...that was how I spend my valentines day. I hope that I will be able to spend more time with those people closest to my heart next Valentines. It doesn't matter if you have someone [boyfriend] or not, what matters most is to spend time with those people who are closest to your heart--family and friends. Well, If we're going to be lucky some of the Angels [Ayka, Nancy and I] will have someone next valentines especially Ayka. hahaha! Who knows, love will be knocking on her door..For Nancy and I, maybe years from now..I still love being with myself.


'Till next Valentines...

25 things about me...

This 25 things about one's self has been going around for several weeks already. I ignored it first but then many people are tagging each other and it made me think, why not join the club and have a list of my own. So, here are the 25 things about me which I posted on my notes in Facebook..

1. As AJ--my friend and my classmate told me...nangamote ako sa statistics...hahaha! Gosh! I didn't realize before that this subject is very important in research...duh! I'll just hire statistician if I'll have to use statistical tools...hahaha!
2. The last novel I read was the "Breaking dawn". I'm not a bookworm anymore..hahaha!Gosh! I miss reading. This will be one of the things I'm going to do after studying...
3. I've never been to Silliman since 2004 and I miss it soo much...I think the time when I was studying there was the happiest time of my life. I have many wonderful memories...
4. I easily trust and forgive people. I don't hold grudges because it makes me feel ugly inside and out. It's a burden.
5. I want to be a philantrophist or to have my own foundation...hahaha! That is why I want to be rich...gosh...so saintly..is this really me? Seriously, I want to help.
6. I have a crush for more than 10 years already and I think that he will always be my crush. Hahaha! gosh! I really want to get over him...
7. I love to watch Asian dramas and TV series...Oh! I still love to watch teen movies or series..
8. I'm fond of listening to Taiwanese, Korean and Japanese songs even though I don't understand them.
9. I have a doubt about me being 'friendly'. Maybe I still am or I was..I don't know anymore. Maybe this is because I'm used to being alone all the time. I have friends but I don't really expect them to be always here for me. I think my my friendliness is 'deteriorating'..hahaha! --gosh! I think I'm on my way to becoming a LONER...
10. I rarely go out. When I was in HS and college, I usually hang out, go to bars or drink but now it's the opposite. I usually stay at home during Friday and Saturday night and Sunday. I just watch a dvd or sleep and sometimes do some paper works...duh! I'm a boring person, aren't I?
11. My favorite coffee now is UCC..Starbucks is alright but If I have to choose between starbucks and UCC..I will definitely pick UCC...There coffee is just so heavenly.
12. I always drink coffee every morning before I start my work and I love to have afternoon coffee or tea in a nice and quiet coffee shop.
13. I love to go to different places and explore. It makes me excited to see unusual things and it makes me curious about other people's lifestyle and culture.
14. I believe that money and success are not my priorities. It's happiness. I just want to be HAPPY...
15. Before, I was so hot tempered but now I can control my temper most of the time...yahoo! Thanks to Koren, Innex, Annex,Panyang, DJ, Astrah and many more who were there for me even though I had a very bad temper...hahaha!
16. Soccer taught me a lot of things...patience, teamwork and so forth.
17. I can sleep for 12 hours a day and I can just lie down on my bed for almost a day.
18. I'm a couch potato. I can watch dvds for hours and have my meals there at the same time.
19. I'm a procrastinator. I just love cramming. di na natoto..
20. I hate writing using a pen and a paper.
21. I'm not confident to be in a relationship...I don't think I can handle it. hahaha! blame it for getting used to being alone all the time.
22. I still believe in HAPPY ENDING...fate and destiny..but then I also believe that there are some things that we have to wouk on. DUH! I'm such a romantic sucker.
23. I'm not good in English...I sucks when it comes to writing..(that's what I think)
24. I want to learn one martial art, photography or do bungee jumping before I die.
25. I admire people who have sense of humor and who are intelligent and open-minded..

gosh! I forgot...this will be my 26th..anyway..I don't like to eat any lamang loob like liver, intestines and so on but I do like liver spread and dinuguan...hahaha!

Here are the 25 things about me..It took me an hour to think about these things. Now, it's ur turn..

Blogging and tagging...SUHS2000 saturday night

A few minutes ago...I got my grade in Second language Acquisition. I thought I did not make it. I can't imagine if I'm going to take that subject again. Last trimester was so traumatic that I don't think I want to repeat the same course. Anyway, I'm thankful that GOD is so merciful that he helped me. I was so happy when I opened my online grade. It was like I was about to jump out from my seat. No more worries about SLA. Now, I can focus on my courses this trimester. FIGHTING!

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Saturday, Jan 31st

I was so excited to have dinner with my batchmates that I didn't even want to attend my classes anymore last Saturday. Because of my laziness and excitement, I was absent in one of my subjects and that was unplanned and unexcpected. Well, there's always a first time. Anyway, I met my SUHS2000 batchmates here in Manila because we had to talk about our homecoming and the activities that we would like to have. Of course, all of us want it to be grand...palaban kasi batch namin..hahaha! So, we dined in Krocs again and then we had a meeting. It was so funny when we were about to pay the bill. We coerce our other batchmates to shell out some money and pay for the bill. In the end, some of us only paid less. hahaha! After that, we went to Ponte to hang out but then we there were bands playings so most of us didn't feel like it so we transferred and went to Absinth. There, we danced until our feet hurt. I think, this event is going to be one of the highlights this year...What a memorable Saturday night!

Here are some of our pictures...

First stop: Krocodile Grill, Greenbelt3 (dinner and meeting)

Paying of bills....well, some of us didn't want to pay much since we are students..hahaha! OH! wait...the students (Jogie and Carlo) were the one who gave a thousand...mmmmm...

LET'S START THE PARTY...

Absinth, Greenbelt3

single ladies...let's have a party..hahaha!

Deejay's farewell dinner

Monday--January 26, 2009

Greenbelt 3

I got a long weekend and I planned to go to La Union and Baguio with Ayka and Weng but then unexpected things happened and it was postponed. One of the reasons why was DJ..she was in town and she wanted us and our other highschool batchmates to meet up. Well, I'm cool with it. Who doesn't want to see her batchmates, right?

Meeting place: Starbucks, Greenbelt 3

Okay..I arrived first in the meeting place. Good for me. I think I'm now a punctual person. Thank god for our company rule which is--one can't be late even a minute. hahaha! Then, DJ arrived then followed by Carlo, Astrah, Apyang (though she's not our batchmate but she's like an adopted alread..;]) then Miguel. Oh! we were busy calling people to confirm if they were coming or not while waiting for the others to arrive. mmmm! Some people are just too busy that it's hard for us to have a get together...after few minutes, we decided to look for a restaurant so that we can have dinner...Gosh! Everybody was hungry already...

Krocs grill, Greenbelt 3

All right, we had some drinks before ordering food then snapping of pictures then chatting about our lives then other people's lives or shall I say our batchmates' lives.

The topics were:

1. the high school love teams--the unforgettable high school love teams like sssshhhh...

2. the batchmates who got married--Oh! we made a list and I think it was quite a long list. Maybe I'll post it one of these days.

3. our career and lovelife--I don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing that everyone of us are single hahaha!. When it comes to career, I think everybody or maybe almost everybody are contented.

To wrap it up, the dinner was great. It was so fun! It struck me how I miss my high school friends, our school and our escapades. I'm also glad that we had that dinner since it was DJ's farewell party. It might take us years again to meet. For us who are still here, hope we will find time to hang out...

Long awaited weekend of the Angels

It's been months since we last saw each other. The last time was in Grace's birthday and it was ages ago. Anyway, the ultimate reason why it took us months to hang out together was our SCHEDULE especially Grace, Weng and I...So guilty that we some kinda stood up Nancy and Ayka. They were the ones who kept on bugging us about our meeting. Grace and I were too busy last term because of our papers and Weng had busy sched. Busy, busy...blame it to our sched..hahaha!

The long awaited weekend...

Finally, we decided to meet last SUNDAY. Since it was the only time that we were all vacant. hahaha! The time was settled but there were last minute a night before. Instead of going to Tagaytay, we ended up hanging out in Alabang...Well, it was not bad since it seemed like we were in Tagaytay because of the weather. It was so chilly.

PLAN:

Meeting place: ATC at 11:00AM
Lunch: West gate
After Lunch: Bowling
Late afternoon: Have coffee

Well, as usual we did not all arrive at 11:00AM..hahaha! Congratulations to Ayka and Nancy. They arrived exactly 11:00 or before 11:00. Followed by yours and truly..I arrived 15 minutes late. I was so engrossed in revising my paper that I forgot the time. Then followed by Shey and Grace. They were an hour and half late...Oh! We were so hungry. Then finally, Weng arrived and the time was 2:00PM...wooh..[It's better to be late than not to show up at all]. We could eat anything and anywhere but then we decided to have late or shall I say very late lunch in Westgate.

Each of us got a gift from Nancy...The cutest picture frame..hahaha!

Last Saturday was my first time to eat Paella because it looked yucky but then when I tasted it..Oh! it was so delicious. I think this will be one of my favorite dishes now.

AFTER LUNCH

We went to Paeng's bowling center in ATC. It was Ayka's first time to play bowling but then she was one of our highest scorers. hahaha!

AFTER BOWLING

Last stop...back to Westgate to have coffee in UCC. It was my first time to have coffee there since we decided not to have Starbucks because it's been our hang out place ever since. In short, we wanted to try another coffee. BTW, it was Weng's treat for us..for being late..hahaha! So, I really want to thank her for treating us. Also, for giving me the shawl (the pink one that I'm wearing).

The coffee in UCC is one of the best. It's heavenly but it's very expensive so I don't think I will always hang out there. hahaha!