wish

I wish I will feel better.
--I don't really know what's going on with me. I feel like I'm going to be depressed.

WONDERING..

I'm just wondering...What kind of feeling does one have if he/she is in love?

cold feet?

"If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be." --James Russell Miller

Last trimester was a kinda traumatic experience for me. Looking back at it, I still couldn't fathom how I did all the requirements my prof gave me. I could say that it made me feel like a real and true student. Well, I was a slacker back then but due to maturity I'm now more responsible when it comes to studying( I think so...). That time of my life is over and I'm glad that I am able to survive that appaling trimester. I don't have to see my prof who gave me a hard time. Thank god for that. It was a challenge and part of me is glad that I took the challenge but then I don't ever wish to do it again. I think I might not survive...traumatized..hahaha! Well, that's what I thought...I thought I will not encounter my scary prof again but then there's a possibility that things might not go well next trimester since there's a big chance that I really have to get the course that my scary prof is going to handle next term. I still have time to change my fate though. I just have to make my convincing power and charm work and hope my temper will not ruin my plans.

Months from now will be the start of my first term and if my plan fails, I can say that I am doom. Gosh! I'm sure I will have endless sleepless nights and worries. I can imagine the awful things that might happen to me and to my classmates. It's kinda funny if I'm going to think about it. Funny to think that everybody will be nervous and everybody will be dreading their class. Funny to think that all will look terrible.

Am I up to the challenge? I'm not sure. Maybe not. It scares the hell out of me but then thinking about it all over again and again makes me realize that maybe I should take the challenge. Enroll in the course that my scary prof will handle. Part of me thinks that I will learn a lot from her. Sometimes my classmates joke around and tell me that I'm one of the unluckiest person in our class. In a way, yes..I'm unlucky but I did learn something...just in a hard way.

I'm crossing my fingers that something good will happen. If not, then I will just cross the bridge when I get there. Maybe it will be a good experience for me and maybe it will make me a better person than I am now.

Miss listening to English and Filipino songs...

These past few months, I've been so crazy listening to soundtracks of different Asian dramas that I've watched. Well, if you're going to open my laptop, the playlist that you can find in my mp3 player will be Asian songs..Korean, Japanese and Taiwanese songs and I don't even understand them. I just like the rhythm and melody and they are so pleasing to my ears.

Early this morning I logged on in magic 89.9 and listened to the music they were playing. Then something happened...I missed listening to English songs and I found out that I missed a lot of things. The songs were new to my ears and I felt good listening to it. It just amazed me. I'm not regretting listening to bunch of songs that I don't understand since it makes me appreciate Asian thingy but then it's just too bad to overdo it. Months ago, I was so curious about anything that was Asian..their language, their drama (tv series), their culture and fashion. I was so into it and I think I still am..waah! Anyway, it's so nice to know different cultures. It makes me realize how great and colorful Asia is. So beautiful that I hope I will be lucky enough to have a chance to explore it.

struggles

These past few days have been a little bit hard. The world's economy is not so good or shall I say getting bad that some companies closed already and many people didn't have a job anymore. Some of my friends are affected by the crisis that has been going on. Though I'm not really affected by this phenomenon but soon I think I will be. It makes me feel bad because most of them need their job badly because they have more responsibilities in life. I know problems come in our way so that we will become a better person and so that we will know our priorities in life. It also makes me think..what if I were them? I think if I would be in the same situation as them, I would take it as a blesing. I will be able to concentrate on my studies but then I will be broke. If I will be broke, I can still live but I really have to live as simple as I can. Maybe I will do some volunteer work since I have more time. I'm planning doing volunteer work as soon as I finish my studies. It's one of the things that I really want to do in this lifetime, to do somethign for others and maybe I can affect some of their lives. These past few days, I received a lot of bad news but then again I'm not directly involved in these news and then it further makes me realize how bless I am and it make me appreciate what I have. I have problems but my problems are the things that I have a control of. If I just worked harder, I don't think I will be facing these kind of things. I would not have failed in my evaluation and exam. I would have gotten better scores. It makes me feel disappointed. Though, I made efforts to have higher scores but then the reason I failed could be because I didn't give my best.

If I were to have a wish right now, I wish everything would be alright.

PETER PAN SYNDROME, do I have one?*******

blah..blah..blah..If anyone reads my blog sometimes they might say that I'm kinda mature person but I don't think so. I always complain and I'm scared to death to face responsibilities. Oh! I hate problems and I always want to be comfortable. I always want my life to be free of hassles. Sometimes, it makes me ask myself If I have Peter Pan syndrome. My mom once said that I have to know how to face my own problems maturely. It's just so hard to be a grown up. I know there are still so many issues going on in my head. I hope I know how to figure out each of them.

Here I go again..maybe I'm just thinking too much!

Touch my body...the other version

Gosh, this is one of the funniest video I've ever watched. It's so hilarious that I almost fell out of my chair. This video completes my day. hahaha! I hope you will love this.

This is the original lyrics of the song.

TOUCH MY BODY by Mariah Carey

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

[Chorus:]
If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my bidness
Like a Wendy Interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

[Chorus]

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

I'm gonna treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...