March 10, 2008
Monday, 2:55 AM
It’s already morning but still I can’t sleep. My brain is wide wake even though I already want to go to my bed. There are so many things going on my mind and I decided to write them down. What I really want in life is one of the things that I’m thinking right now. What are the things that can possibly make me happy and what are the things that I’m longing to do. I’m taking graduate studies. Weeks from now, I’m going to have my diploma in teaching as a second language and months from now, I’m going to take masters in teaching English. Is this what I really want? I like it. I like teaching and when I see students learning from me, I have this wonderful feeling but then there is something missing.
There are so many things that I want to do and some of them, I already did and doing but I don’t really excel. I envy those people who excel on the things that they do and I wonder why I can’t. Is it because there are so many things that I want to do and I can’t give all of my energy in one thing. It seems that I’m scattering them in different places. I like to cook and I think I can really cook. I like to play soccer and I can play it. I like business and I had a wonderful time doing it when I was in college. I did these things but I did'nt excel.
Some people say that I’m lucky. I have a wonderful family. Despite with our differences but we still manage. I love them, immediate and extended. I have great friends, who are always there for me. In fact, some of them are not just friends, it seems like they are already my sisters. I have a good education. I studied in a private school since I was in preparatory. I went to a university that gives good quality of education and right now I’m studying in one of the best universities in the country. But still, I don’t feel that lucky.
Now, I’m working in an English online company. I have an invigorating job since I have to think of the lessons that I will conduct in my classes and I have a chance to talk with my students about their life. I have friends in the company. In fact, some of them are not just my friends they are my close friends. I have a good salary compare to others. Despite all of these things, there are times that I’m jaded.
Now, it’s already 3:42. My eyes are already drooping but still there are many things that I want to write…I have to have my sleep. I hope hours from now, when I wake up, it will be a wonderful day for me…To be continued…
Monday, 2:55 AM
It’s already morning but still I can’t sleep. My brain is wide wake even though I already want to go to my bed. There are so many things going on my mind and I decided to write them down. What I really want in life is one of the things that I’m thinking right now. What are the things that can possibly make me happy and what are the things that I’m longing to do. I’m taking graduate studies. Weeks from now, I’m going to have my diploma in teaching as a second language and months from now, I’m going to take masters in teaching English. Is this what I really want? I like it. I like teaching and when I see students learning from me, I have this wonderful feeling but then there is something missing.
There are so many things that I want to do and some of them, I already did and doing but I don’t really excel. I envy those people who excel on the things that they do and I wonder why I can’t. Is it because there are so many things that I want to do and I can’t give all of my energy in one thing. It seems that I’m scattering them in different places. I like to cook and I think I can really cook. I like to play soccer and I can play it. I like business and I had a wonderful time doing it when I was in college. I did these things but I did'nt excel.
Some people say that I’m lucky. I have a wonderful family. Despite with our differences but we still manage. I love them, immediate and extended. I have great friends, who are always there for me. In fact, some of them are not just friends, it seems like they are already my sisters. I have a good education. I studied in a private school since I was in preparatory. I went to a university that gives good quality of education and right now I’m studying in one of the best universities in the country. But still, I don’t feel that lucky.
Now, I’m working in an English online company. I have an invigorating job since I have to think of the lessons that I will conduct in my classes and I have a chance to talk with my students about their life. I have friends in the company. In fact, some of them are not just my friends they are my close friends. I have a good salary compare to others. Despite all of these things, there are times that I’m jaded.
Now, it’s already 3:42. My eyes are already drooping but still there are many things that I want to write…I have to have my sleep. I hope hours from now, when I wake up, it will be a wonderful day for me…To be continued…
1 comment:
quarter life crisis! hehe... you're not alone... we can do this!
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