2009 is almost over

2009--not a best year for me. It's one of my most challenging years in life. I always think that once 2009 will be over my life will be better. I hope I'm right. Oh!I think I am. My intuition says so. Twenty-0-nine, the year that I don't mind saying goodbye. It's not that bad though. There are a lot of good things happened to me. Quite a lot if I'm going to think about it. I just recent the fact that this year I wasn't able to make decision freely because there were a lot of things to consider and I felt my hands were somewhat tied. This year is kind of a breaking point to me. I have had enough. What I want is to be free but then I have OBLIGATIONS. The thing that I'm not so fond of. Obligations and how to face it in an optimistic manner are part of growing up. Knowing that I don't handle obligations well and big responsibilities scare a hell out of me makes me say that there are a lot of things that I have to learn for the years to come.


Twenty-one days from now and twenty-0-nine will be over. I scanned my long-ago blog posts and I stumbled on my christmas wish lists and sort of New Year's resolution blogs. I found out that more than half of my list and resolution did not happen. Too bad, right?


One of the things that I remember writing is to travel. What the heck..I can't even go to Baguio or to a beach somewhere in Batangas. Oh! There's one thing--spend less and something like about having savings? So funny! I don't even have a single centavo in my account. Yeah, yeah, yeah..I get it. I was so busy these past few months. I could hardly breathe. I also had a lot of payables. Excuses? Well, it's a good thing that I stumbled on them just to make me realize how useless my list and resolution are. I guess I just have to include these things in my list/resolution/plan again for next year. BTW, so excited to make one.


At the end of the year, we always question our self, "Did I live my life or Did life simply pass me by?".