Monday, May 4, 2009
year 2009
Last night, I wasn't able to sleep because my thoughts were wandering. I can't deny the fact that I'm scared because I know I have to make decisions that can change my life. There will be many changes that will happen soon and I hope I can cope with it. It scares the hell out of me because it's my call. Nobody has to make decisions for me and nobody has to take the responsibilities except me if I screw up. The things that keeps me going are knowing that if I will succeed, everything will be better and knowing that God will help me no matter what. He's the only one who can ease my worries and bring me happiness.
God, I really need your help.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
ranting about my friends rants..
I read my friend's blog [Grace] few minutes ago and I stumbled on this quote from Grey's anatomy--one of our favorite tv series. My friend is ranting about stuffs and so am I. Well, responsibility really sucks! I think, Grace and I feel the same way about things though she really has a lot of responsibilities compare to me but still they are responsibilities and sometimes I feel like they are choking me alive.
To Grace:
Beh, we really need a break. Good thing that we will have no work this Friday and Tuesday. Ayka invited me to go with them this coming Monday. They are going to have night swimming in Antipolo but I don't know if I'm going. I'm still thinking about it. Ayka told me to go out and have some good times but then I'm too lazy to do it. I think this is where some of my problems lie, laziness and so in love in hanging out in my apartment. So, what are you going to do this weekend? I just realized that I didn't really have plans for the next few days because I am so hook in watching BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS...waaahhh! Any plans for angels?
Krizz
To ANGELS: Aja! Chayo! FIGHTING!
Monday, April 27, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
EDITORIAL - Growing illiteracy
These disheartening facts come from the Department of Education, whose officials want stronger literacy programs for both youths and adults. DepEd officials warn that the growing illiteracy rate would take its toll on the economy. Illiteracy and the slide in the quality of Philippine education are already taking their toll on national competitiveness, as shown in numerous international surveys.
Local executives must show leadership in improving the nation’s literacy level. A literacy mapping project undertaken by the Department of the Interior and Local Government among fifth and sixth class municipalities – the most economically backward in the country – showed that literacy programs were not making much impact. DILG officials observed that literacy programs were not given priority by certain local governments.
Education programs have rarely attracted politicians’ interest. Some politicians, believing that patronage thrives on poverty and poor education, deliberately shelve programs to raise literacy levels and improve the quality of education in their jurisdictions. In some underdeveloped areas, there are simply not enough funds for literacy programs.
But the problem cannot be left to fester. In the global economy, quality education is indispensable. Development is accelerated in countries that give priority to educating their citizens. Emerging economic powers including China and India are investing heavily in public education, providing their people with the tools they need to excel in a highly competitive global environment. Countries that do not treat education with the same urgency risk being left behind. In the Philippines, educators themselves are sounding the alarm. It would be folly to ignore the warning. - (Philstar News Service, www.philstar.com)
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Isn't this so ironic? After reading this article, it just made me so sad and pissed off at the same time. Filipinos have to do some actions now. We don't have to only rely on our government but we also have to do something. If our situation will be worst 20 or so years from now, then it will be our fault..each and everyone of us.
For those Filipinos who are so selfish and corrupt to think of their country. I know that corruption is everywhere and it can't be totally be erradicated but then "wag naman masyadong makapal ang mukha". They can at least give back something and not just always getting something from their country.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
at last..weekend with friends
Saturday, 8:00PM or so
Weng's crib
- We [angels] are all excited that Weng is now having a baby. Wow! I can't believe it. It's really a miracle to have a baby.
- My friends and I played Wii. It was so exciting. It lingered in my mind for hours. I really love it. I hope I have one so that I wil just play everytime I have a free time but I think it's impossible to happen and I don't think it's a good idea 'coz I will just keep on hanging out in my apartment. I think that's one of the problems why my social life is going down, I love my place so much that it becomes my favorite hang out place. hahaha! So lazy to go out.
Sunday (Lunch at Cravings, Shang-rila)
Yes, we are supposedly have to have lunch in Craving but then we (Angels) arrived around 3p.m. hahaha! It's snack time already. Well, blame it to Wii. We didn't want to leave Weng's place because we wanted to finish the game.
It was great that we were able to meet our former officemates. It was like a reunion. Many things had happened on each and every one of us. There are some of us who got married, got pregnant, got better carreer and some of us, still remains single. It was a great thing to know that everybody is doing well (that's what I think...).
After meeting our former officemates, we went to Starbucks (forever...walang kamatayan na starbucks) to hang out for couple of minutes before saying goodbye. We talked about "US" since it will be weeks again before we're going to see each other.
To wrap it up, my weekend was awesome! I'm glad that I went out and I spent time with my friends. Sometimes, we take our friends for granted and sometimes we are not sensitive enough to know their feelings. For my friends, though we have differences and we have shortcomings but then I'm happy that we still remain friends.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
BEATING the red LIGHT...Summer 2009...here I come..
Well, I just submitted my last requirement for this term last night at exactly 9:00. My partner and I though we beat the red light. We thought that so long as it's still April 15, we can still meet the deadline..Sad to say but when we submitted our paper, we found out that the deadline was 5pm. I think she announced it but we were not able to hear it. I hope my prof will still consider our paper. Looking back on the efforts that we did just to complete the paper on time makes me think that it was amazing. I can't believe that we made a research paper in two days...TWO DAYS..Wow! I feel like a superhuman..hahaha! I don't know how I stayed calm while I was making the paper. Maybe it's because I'm always cramming and now I get used to it. The term is over and finally, I can start my summer vacay...
Lesson learned: Don't cram but I think I will never learn...a bad habit...
SUMMER 2009..time to party!
PLANS for the summer
This coming weekend:
- Overnyt at Weng's house this Satuday
- Lunch with SISA people this Sunday
For the rest of the SUMMER
- Go out of town with friends [La Union?]
- Spend time with the Angels and Krn & Noreen [contact HS and university friends?]
- Have a date with Quirk et al [dating a grammar book?]
- Go to a beach or resort
Hope my plans will be pushed through..
Thursday, April 2, 2009
random thoughts
There are times in life that we have to accept what we can't and as we grow older there are more things that we can't have and more words that we can't say. As we grow older there are more times that we are alone and there are lesser people who take care of us. There are more unreasonable things that happen and all of these make us grow up. We have to for us to save our sanity.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
wish
--I don't really know what's going on with me. I feel like I'm going to be depressed.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
cold feet?
"If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be." --James Russell Miller
Last trimester was a kinda traumatic experience for me. Looking back at it, I still couldn't fathom how I did all the requirements my prof gave me. I could say that it made me feel like a real and true student. Well, I was a slacker back then but due to maturity I'm now more responsible when it comes to studying( I think so...). That time of my life is over and I'm glad that I am able to survive that appaling trimester. I don't have to see my prof who gave me a hard time. Thank god for that. It was a challenge and part of me is glad that I took the challenge but then I don't ever wish to do it again. I think I might not survive...traumatized..hahaha! Well, that's what I thought...I thought I will not encounter my scary prof again but then there's a possibility that things might not go well next trimester since there's a big chance that I really have to get the course that my scary prof is going to handle next term. I still have time to change my fate though. I just have to make my convincing power and charm work and hope my temper will not ruin my plans.Months from now will be the start of my first term and if my plan fails, I can say that I am doom. Gosh! I'm sure I will have endless sleepless nights and worries. I can imagine the awful things that might happen to me and to my classmates. It's kinda funny if I'm going to think about it. Funny to think that everybody will be nervous and everybody will be dreading their class. Funny to think that all will look terrible.
Am I up to the challenge? I'm not sure. Maybe not. It scares the hell out of me but then thinking about it all over again and again makes me realize that maybe I should take the challenge. Enroll in the course that my scary prof will handle. Part of me thinks that I will learn a lot from her. Sometimes my classmates joke around and tell me that I'm one of the unluckiest person in our class. In a way, yes..I'm unlucky but I did learn something...just in a hard way.
I'm crossing my fingers that something good will happen. If not, then I will just cross the bridge when I get there. Maybe it will be a good experience for me and maybe it will make me a better person than I am now.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Miss listening to English and Filipino songs...
Early this morning I logged on in magic 89.9 and listened to the music they were playing. Then something happened...I missed listening to English songs and I found out that I missed a lot of things. The songs were new to my ears and I felt good listening to it. It just amazed me. I'm not regretting listening to bunch of songs that I don't understand since it makes me appreciate Asian thingy but then it's just too bad to overdo it. Months ago, I was so curious about anything that was Asian..their language, their drama (tv series), their culture and fashion. I was so into it and I think I still am..waah! Anyway, it's so nice to know different cultures. It makes me realize how great and colorful Asia is. So beautiful that I hope I will be lucky enough to have a chance to explore it.
Monday, March 9, 2009
struggles
If I were to have a wish right now, I wish everything would be alright.
PETER PAN SYNDROME, do I have one?*******
blah..blah..blah..If anyone reads my blog sometimes they might say that I'm kinda mature person but I don't think so. I always complain and I'm scared to death to face responsibilities. Oh! I hate problems and I always want to be comfortable. I always want my life to be free of hassles. Sometimes, it makes me ask myself If I have Peter Pan syndrome. My mom once said that I have to know how to face my own problems maturely. It's just so hard to be a grown up. I know there are still so many issues going on in my head. I hope I know how to figure out each of them.
Here I go again..maybe I'm just thinking too much!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Touch my body...the other version
Gosh, this is one of the funniest video I've ever watched. It's so hilarious that I almost fell out of my chair. This video completes my day. hahaha! I hope you will love this.
This is the original lyrics of the song.
TOUCH MY BODY by Mariah Carey
MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof
[Chorus:]
If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my bidness
Like a Wendy Interview
But this is private
Between you and I
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.
Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea
[Chorus]
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.
I'm gonna treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.
Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...
Friday, February 27, 2009
musing...

Friday, February 20, 2009
Missing soccer...
It's been years since I last played soccer. If I can remember it right, the last time I played was after my college graduation. I convinced my mom to allow me to go back to Dumaguete to process my school documents but at the back of my mind, the real reason that I went back was because I wanted to play soccer. I think leaving Dumaguete particulary Silliman is one my lowest point in life. I just really love that place and the people. I feel so comfortable and happy just thinking of the memories I have way back high school then college especially the time when I was in the field playing with my team mates.Soccer...my favorite sport. I started playing it when I was in high school. It was just for fun, no pressure at all. Our coach treated us like babies. The real game started when I played soccer in college. I stopped playing when I was in my freshmen and sophomore years in college due to my course and also due to some personal reasons. I was in my junior year in college when I went back playing. Our coach taught me a lot of things--not just playing the game but building my character. I think, I've been more patient, considerate and persevere person because of soccer. Remembering the trainings and scolding that we've got from our coach makes me say that it is worth it. If I were to do one thing in my life all over again, I would like to play soccer again. It's the only thing that I can remember doing where I gave my 100%. Though, I was not so good in playing but at least I gave my everything. Our team standing was not one of the best and was so behind compared to our soccer men varsity but then we were fighters. We lost a lot of games and we won a few but it made me realize that it doesn't really matter if we were not the number one team. What matters most is we worked as a team and we did what we could. For me, it's alright to fail so long as I did my best. As I cruise down my memory lane, I remember that I miss some of my afternoon classes just to practice playing soccer. I could not bear to be absent in our afternoon soccer practices that I rather ditch my classes and my meeting with my friends. I like to smell again the scent of a newly cut grass and spend my afternoon in the field with a soccer ball. I want to experience this kind of thing again. Doing something that I love.
As days passed by, I came to realize that we have to follow our heart for us to find happiness and as I encountered different types of people, I can say that I'm still fortunate because I was able to do the things I want when I still studying in high school and college. Maybe that's why I always say that those were my "golden" years. As for the months and years to come, I will truly try my best to make more wonderful memories and to do the things that makes me happy. I only live once in this earth, I hope that I will be as carefree as I could be.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
My student
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One of my favorite students got married two months ago or so. In our class, he's funny and talkative. He really has a sense of humor. He can easily grasp the jokes that I cracked and the humor behind our dialogues. He's such a comic. These past few days, I kept on bugging him about his wedding picture and I made him promise to send it to me. So, yesterday he sent me these pictures which are so beautiful and dreamy. hahaha! I think these kind of pictures are one of every women's dreams--to capture love through photos. So cheesy...hahaha!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Single women's valentine's day
February 14th
Valentine's Day...Well, I was so busy. I had to meet different people. I had dates--my cousins and friends. It was still a date, right? Valentines is not just for those people who got lovers, it's for single people out there. It's time to be with our friends and family.
So, here's my valentines...
I spent more than half of my day in school. I had to go to school because of my classes. Oh! It was valentine's day and I was staring in a four walled corners of my room and listening to my professors' discussions. I felt a little bit bad because everybody was already enjoying their day while I was stuck with my classmates and professor discussing reading strategies and syllabus. What a day to spend. Well, I sensed that I'm not the only one who felt that way because I some of my classmates were restless and could not wait to get out of our classrooms. hahaha! Thank god! we didn't have a class in our last course which is grammatical structures...nobody wants to discuss grammar in a day like this, right?
After class, I met my cousins. We had pizza and spaghetti. Oh! I was bloated. We ordered many food and we were only three. We were together for less than three hours since I had to go somewhere. I had to go to my friend's place[Ayka] just to spend time with her and Nancy. She was so busy so we decided to have coffee instead and since I planned to see Weng before midnight together with Nancy, we had to live early because of the heavy traffic. While we were having coffee, we tried to catch each others lives though we didn't have much time to talk about every single details that happened to us. When we were about to meet Weng, we decided to call it off because I was tired and so is she. I think, I've been all over metro Manila that day. Though, my meeting with Weng was not push through, I still decided to go home early because I was too scared to commute from Quezon city to Alabang alone in the middle of the night. I'm a little bit skittish now because I was harassed months ago. It's just that I don't want to have that kind of experience because it makes me angry and hateful.
I arrived around midnight and when I reached my apartment, I'm alone and sometimes I just want it to be that way--alone. No one to talk to. I turned on my dvd and watched something that I already watched months ago.
Then Valentines day was over...that was how I spend my valentines day. I hope that I will be able to spend more time with those people closest to my heart next Valentines. It doesn't matter if you have someone [boyfriend] or not, what matters most is to spend time with those people who are closest to your heart--family and friends. Well, If we're going to be lucky some of the Angels [Ayka, Nancy and I] will have someone next valentines especially Ayka. hahaha! Who knows, love will be knocking on her door..For Nancy and I, maybe years from now..I still love being with myself.
'Till next Valentines...
Monday, February 9, 2009
25 things about me...
1. As AJ--my friend and my classmate told me...nangamote ako sa statistics...hahaha! Gosh! I didn't realize before that this subject is very important in research...duh! I'll just hire statistician if I'll have to use statistical tools...hahaha!
2. The last novel I read was the "Breaking dawn". I'm not a bookworm anymore..hahaha!Gosh! I miss reading. This will be one of the things I'm going to do after studying...
3. I've never been to Silliman since 2004 and I miss it soo much...I think the time when I was studying there was the happiest time of my life. I have many wonderful memories...
4. I easily trust and forgive people. I don't hold grudges because it makes me feel ugly inside and out. It's a burden.
5. I want to be a philantrophist or to have my own foundation...hahaha! That is why I want to be rich...gosh...so saintly..is this really me? Seriously, I want to help.
6. I have a crush for more than 10 years already and I think that he will always be my crush. Hahaha! gosh! I really want to get over him...
7. I love to watch Asian dramas and TV series...Oh! I still love to watch teen movies or series..
8. I'm fond of listening to Taiwanese, Korean and Japanese songs even though I don't understand them.
9. I have a doubt about me being 'friendly'. Maybe I still am or I was..I don't know anymore. Maybe this is because I'm used to being alone all the time. I have friends but I don't really expect them to be always here for me. I think my my friendliness is 'deteriorating'..hahaha! --gosh! I think I'm on my way to becoming a LONER...
10. I rarely go out. When I was in HS and college, I usually hang out, go to bars or drink but now it's the opposite. I usually stay at home during Friday and Saturday night and Sunday. I just watch a dvd or sleep and sometimes do some paper works...duh! I'm a boring person, aren't I?
11. My favorite coffee now is UCC..Starbucks is alright but If I have to choose between starbucks and UCC..I will definitely pick UCC...There coffee is just so heavenly.
12. I always drink coffee every morning before I start my work and I love to have afternoon coffee or tea in a nice and quiet coffee shop.
13. I love to go to different places and explore. It makes me excited to see unusual things and it makes me curious about other people's lifestyle and culture.
14. I believe that money and success are not my priorities. It's happiness. I just want to be HAPPY...
15. Before, I was so hot tempered but now I can control my temper most of the time...yahoo! Thanks to Koren, Innex, Annex,Panyang, DJ, Astrah and many more who were there for me even though I had a very bad temper...hahaha!
16. Soccer taught me a lot of things...patience, teamwork and so forth.
17. I can sleep for 12 hours a day and I can just lie down on my bed for almost a day.
18. I'm a couch potato. I can watch dvds for hours and have my meals there at the same time.
19. I'm a procrastinator. I just love cramming. di na natoto..
20. I hate writing using a pen and a paper.
21. I'm not confident to be in a relationship...I don't think I can handle it. hahaha! blame it for getting used to being alone all the time.
22. I still believe in HAPPY ENDING...fate and destiny..but then I also believe that there are some things that we have to wouk on. DUH! I'm such a romantic sucker.
23. I'm not good in English...I sucks when it comes to writing..(that's what I think)
24. I want to learn one martial art, photography or do bungee jumping before I die.
25. I admire people who have sense of humor and who are intelligent and open-minded..
gosh! I forgot...this will be my 26th..anyway..I don't like to eat any lamang loob like liver, intestines and so on but I do like liver spread and dinuguan...hahaha!
Here are the 25 things about me..It took me an hour to think about these things. Now, it's ur turn..
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Blogging and tagging...SUHS2000 saturday night





Paying of bills....well, some of us didn't want to pay much since we are students..hahaha! OH! wait...the students (Jogie and Carlo) were the one who gave a thousand...mmmmm...
LET'S START THE PARTY...



