wish

I wish I will feel better.
--I don't really know what's going on with me. I feel like I'm going to be depressed.

WONDERING..

I'm just wondering...What kind of feeling does one have if he/she is in love?

cold feet?

"If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be." --James Russell Miller

Last trimester was a kinda traumatic experience for me. Looking back at it, I still couldn't fathom how I did all the requirements my prof gave me. I could say that it made me feel like a real and true student. Well, I was a slacker back then but due to maturity I'm now more responsible when it comes to studying( I think so...). That time of my life is over and I'm glad that I am able to survive that appaling trimester. I don't have to see my prof who gave me a hard time. Thank god for that. It was a challenge and part of me is glad that I took the challenge but then I don't ever wish to do it again. I think I might not survive...traumatized..hahaha! Well, that's what I thought...I thought I will not encounter my scary prof again but then there's a possibility that things might not go well next trimester since there's a big chance that I really have to get the course that my scary prof is going to handle next term. I still have time to change my fate though. I just have to make my convincing power and charm work and hope my temper will not ruin my plans.

Months from now will be the start of my first term and if my plan fails, I can say that I am doom. Gosh! I'm sure I will have endless sleepless nights and worries. I can imagine the awful things that might happen to me and to my classmates. It's kinda funny if I'm going to think about it. Funny to think that everybody will be nervous and everybody will be dreading their class. Funny to think that all will look terrible.

Am I up to the challenge? I'm not sure. Maybe not. It scares the hell out of me but then thinking about it all over again and again makes me realize that maybe I should take the challenge. Enroll in the course that my scary prof will handle. Part of me thinks that I will learn a lot from her. Sometimes my classmates joke around and tell me that I'm one of the unluckiest person in our class. In a way, yes..I'm unlucky but I did learn something...just in a hard way.

I'm crossing my fingers that something good will happen. If not, then I will just cross the bridge when I get there. Maybe it will be a good experience for me and maybe it will make me a better person than I am now.

Miss listening to English and Filipino songs...

These past few months, I've been so crazy listening to soundtracks of different Asian dramas that I've watched. Well, if you're going to open my laptop, the playlist that you can find in my mp3 player will be Asian songs..Korean, Japanese and Taiwanese songs and I don't even understand them. I just like the rhythm and melody and they are so pleasing to my ears.

Early this morning I logged on in magic 89.9 and listened to the music they were playing. Then something happened...I missed listening to English songs and I found out that I missed a lot of things. The songs were new to my ears and I felt good listening to it. It just amazed me. I'm not regretting listening to bunch of songs that I don't understand since it makes me appreciate Asian thingy but then it's just too bad to overdo it. Months ago, I was so curious about anything that was Asian..their language, their drama (tv series), their culture and fashion. I was so into it and I think I still am..waah! Anyway, it's so nice to know different cultures. It makes me realize how great and colorful Asia is. So beautiful that I hope I will be lucky enough to have a chance to explore it.

struggles

These past few days have been a little bit hard. The world's economy is not so good or shall I say getting bad that some companies closed already and many people didn't have a job anymore. Some of my friends are affected by the crisis that has been going on. Though I'm not really affected by this phenomenon but soon I think I will be. It makes me feel bad because most of them need their job badly because they have more responsibilities in life. I know problems come in our way so that we will become a better person and so that we will know our priorities in life. It also makes me think..what if I were them? I think if I would be in the same situation as them, I would take it as a blesing. I will be able to concentrate on my studies but then I will be broke. If I will be broke, I can still live but I really have to live as simple as I can. Maybe I will do some volunteer work since I have more time. I'm planning doing volunteer work as soon as I finish my studies. It's one of the things that I really want to do in this lifetime, to do somethign for others and maybe I can affect some of their lives. These past few days, I received a lot of bad news but then again I'm not directly involved in these news and then it further makes me realize how bless I am and it make me appreciate what I have. I have problems but my problems are the things that I have a control of. If I just worked harder, I don't think I will be facing these kind of things. I would not have failed in my evaluation and exam. I would have gotten better scores. It makes me feel disappointed. Though, I made efforts to have higher scores but then the reason I failed could be because I didn't give my best.

If I were to have a wish right now, I wish everything would be alright.

PETER PAN SYNDROME, do I have one?*******

blah..blah..blah..If anyone reads my blog sometimes they might say that I'm kinda mature person but I don't think so. I always complain and I'm scared to death to face responsibilities. Oh! I hate problems and I always want to be comfortable. I always want my life to be free of hassles. Sometimes, it makes me ask myself If I have Peter Pan syndrome. My mom once said that I have to know how to face my own problems maturely. It's just so hard to be a grown up. I know there are still so many issues going on in my head. I hope I know how to figure out each of them.

Here I go again..maybe I'm just thinking too much!

Touch my body...the other version

Gosh, this is one of the funniest video I've ever watched. It's so hilarious that I almost fell out of my chair. This video completes my day. hahaha! I hope you will love this.

This is the original lyrics of the song.

TOUCH MY BODY by Mariah Carey

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

[Chorus:]
If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my bidness
Like a Wendy Interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

[Chorus]

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

I'm gonna treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...

musing...

Last Wednesday, I got my braces. Now, I really look like Ugly Betty. I wear glasses and braces. I'm sure I look like a geeky person and I don't think many of us want to look like one. So, I will try my best to be diligent in putting on my contacts. Gosh! I'm too lazy to care for my appearance. hahaha! I don't want to put on my contacts early in the morning and I don't want to put on a little bit of make-up just to be presentable. I rather sleep than wake up early just to do these things every morning. Then it made me think, I really have to start caring.

BTW, this is my braces and its pink...hahaha!

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Speaking of CARE, I sometimes don't care and that's the truth. Even though many things is already happening around me, I usually have late reaction or there are times that I simply don't feel anything except when something bad happens to one of my closest friends but when it comes to myself, this kind of thing usually happens--not caring. Gosh! I think I'm a cold person. I don't exactly know when I started feeling this way. Maybe wayback when I was in high school, when I encountered several disappointments. I always don't expect something from someone or from anything that I do. I don't expect to excel and I don't expect to do things better than others 'cause I will just end up bitter and frustrated. Now, I realize that my life is a little bit chaotic since I don't really care much about it. I feel like I didn't do anything right these past few months and I'm dismayed. I thought everything will be alright but then I'm wrong. Either way, I will still feel disappointed--for myself or on the things surrounding me. Well, life is full of disappointments and it's part of growing up. It's just how we're going to handle the different situations that come along.

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The funny thing that makes me realize about these things are when my friends told me about their problems. Yesterday, I received text messages and online messages from my friends almost at the same time. They told me about their worries in life. One is worried about her performance in her office and her capabilities, two were worried about their studies, one is worried about someone's health and the other is regretting her decision. How about me? I am worried about them. The things that they said to me made me think that I should also worry about my studies and my performance in my company because I'm not doing well. It's like I'm a mediocre and a walking failure. So, today I said to myself that I have to aim high and that I have to do my best in everything not just in some things.

Missing soccer...

It's been years since I last played soccer. If I can remember it right, the last time I played was after my college graduation. I convinced my mom to allow me to go back to Dumaguete to process my school documents but at the back of my mind, the real reason that I went back was because I wanted to play soccer. I think leaving Dumaguete particulary Silliman is one my lowest point in life. I just really love that place and the people. I feel so comfortable and happy just thinking of the memories I have way back high school then college especially the time when I was in the field playing with my team mates.

Soccer...my favorite sport. I started playing it when I was in high school. It was just for fun, no pressure at all. Our coach treated us like babies. The real game started when I played soccer in college. I stopped playing when I was in my freshmen and sophomore years in college due to my course and also due to some personal reasons. I was in my junior year in college when I went back playing. Our coach taught me a lot of things--not just playing the game but building my character. I think, I've been more patient, considerate and persevere person because of soccer. Remembering the trainings and scolding that we've got from our coach makes me say that it is worth it. If I were to do one thing in my life all over again, I would like to play soccer again. It's the only thing that I can remember doing where I gave my 100%. Though, I was not so good in playing but at least I gave my everything. Our team standing was not one of the best and was so behind compared to our soccer men varsity but then we were fighters. We lost a lot of games and we won a few but it made me realize that it doesn't really matter if we were not the number one team. What matters most is we worked as a team and we did what we could. For me, it's alright to fail so long as I did my best. As I cruise down my memory lane, I remember that I miss some of my afternoon classes just to practice playing soccer. I could not bear to be absent in our afternoon soccer practices that I rather ditch my classes and my meeting with my friends. I like to smell again the scent of a newly cut grass and spend my afternoon in the field with a soccer ball. I want to experience this kind of thing again. Doing something that I love.


As days passed by, I came to realize that we have to follow our heart for us to find happiness and as I encountered different types of people, I can say that I'm still fortunate because I was able to do the things I want when I still studying in high school and college. Maybe that's why I always say that those were my "golden" years. As for the months and years to come, I will truly try my best to make more wonderful memories and to do the things that makes me happy. I only live once in this earth, I hope that I will be as carefree as I could be.

My student

I've been teaching Koreans for several years already. I started teaching kids and then now I'm teaching adults. I had wonderful time with kids because they are so trusting and participative. Anyway, now that I'm handling adults I find it interesting to have conversations with them about different topics. I learned a lot of things from them and I hope they learned something from me.

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One of my favorite students got married two months ago or so. In our class, he's funny and talkative. He really has a sense of humor. He can easily grasp the jokes that I cracked and the humor behind our dialogues. He's such a comic. These past few days, I kept on bugging him about his wedding picture and I made him promise to send it to me. So, yesterday he sent me these pictures which are so beautiful and dreamy. hahaha! I think these kind of pictures are one of every women's dreams--to capture love through photos. So cheesy...hahaha!

This is my favorite photo. It's so romantic--kissing under the rain..hahaha!

Though some might think that they're just photos but these kind of photos may make some people inspired and make those people who don't believe in love to believe again.

Lucky are those people who found love and good luck for those people who are still looking for love. As for me, I'm just happy to see people in love. I only want to be an observer at this moment and not a participant.

Single women's valentine's day

February 14th


Valentine's Day...Well, I was so busy. I had to meet different people. I had dates--my cousins and friends. It was still a date, right? Valentines is not just for those people who got lovers, it's for single people out there. It's time to be with our friends and family.


So, here's my valentines...


I spent more than half of my day in school. I had to go to school because of my classes. Oh! It was valentine's day and I was staring in a four walled corners of my room and listening to my professors' discussions. I felt a little bit bad because everybody was already enjoying their day while I was stuck with my classmates and professor discussing reading strategies and syllabus. What a day to spend. Well, I sensed that I'm not the only one who felt that way because I some of my classmates were restless and could not wait to get out of our classrooms. hahaha! Thank god! we didn't have a class in our last course which is grammatical structures...nobody wants to discuss grammar in a day like this, right?


After class, I met my cousins. We had pizza and spaghetti. Oh! I was bloated. We ordered many food and we were only three. We were together for less than three hours since I had to go somewhere. I had to go to my friend's place[Ayka] just to spend time with her and Nancy. She was so busy so we decided to have coffee instead and since I planned to see Weng before midnight together with Nancy, we had to live early because of the heavy traffic. While we were having coffee, we tried to catch each others lives though we didn't have much time to talk about every single details that happened to us. When we were about to meet Weng, we decided to call it off because I was tired and so is she. I think, I've been all over metro Manila that day. Though, my meeting with Weng was not push through, I still decided to go home early because I was too scared to commute from Quezon city to Alabang alone in the middle of the night. I'm a little bit skittish now because I was harassed months ago. It's just that I don't want to have that kind of experience because it makes me angry and hateful.


I arrived around midnight and when I reached my apartment, I'm alone and sometimes I just want it to be that way--alone. No one to talk to. I turned on my dvd and watched something that I already watched months ago.


Then Valentines day was over...that was how I spend my valentines day. I hope that I will be able to spend more time with those people closest to my heart next Valentines. It doesn't matter if you have someone [boyfriend] or not, what matters most is to spend time with those people who are closest to your heart--family and friends. Well, If we're going to be lucky some of the Angels [Ayka, Nancy and I] will have someone next valentines especially Ayka. hahaha! Who knows, love will be knocking on her door..For Nancy and I, maybe years from now..I still love being with myself.


'Till next Valentines...

25 things about me...

This 25 things about one's self has been going around for several weeks already. I ignored it first but then many people are tagging each other and it made me think, why not join the club and have a list of my own. So, here are the 25 things about me which I posted on my notes in Facebook..

1. As AJ--my friend and my classmate told me...nangamote ako sa statistics...hahaha! Gosh! I didn't realize before that this subject is very important in research...duh! I'll just hire statistician if I'll have to use statistical tools...hahaha!
2. The last novel I read was the "Breaking dawn". I'm not a bookworm anymore..hahaha!Gosh! I miss reading. This will be one of the things I'm going to do after studying...
3. I've never been to Silliman since 2004 and I miss it soo much...I think the time when I was studying there was the happiest time of my life. I have many wonderful memories...
4. I easily trust and forgive people. I don't hold grudges because it makes me feel ugly inside and out. It's a burden.
5. I want to be a philantrophist or to have my own foundation...hahaha! That is why I want to be rich...gosh...so saintly..is this really me? Seriously, I want to help.
6. I have a crush for more than 10 years already and I think that he will always be my crush. Hahaha! gosh! I really want to get over him...
7. I love to watch Asian dramas and TV series...Oh! I still love to watch teen movies or series..
8. I'm fond of listening to Taiwanese, Korean and Japanese songs even though I don't understand them.
9. I have a doubt about me being 'friendly'. Maybe I still am or I was..I don't know anymore. Maybe this is because I'm used to being alone all the time. I have friends but I don't really expect them to be always here for me. I think my my friendliness is 'deteriorating'..hahaha! --gosh! I think I'm on my way to becoming a LONER...
10. I rarely go out. When I was in HS and college, I usually hang out, go to bars or drink but now it's the opposite. I usually stay at home during Friday and Saturday night and Sunday. I just watch a dvd or sleep and sometimes do some paper works...duh! I'm a boring person, aren't I?
11. My favorite coffee now is UCC..Starbucks is alright but If I have to choose between starbucks and UCC..I will definitely pick UCC...There coffee is just so heavenly.
12. I always drink coffee every morning before I start my work and I love to have afternoon coffee or tea in a nice and quiet coffee shop.
13. I love to go to different places and explore. It makes me excited to see unusual things and it makes me curious about other people's lifestyle and culture.
14. I believe that money and success are not my priorities. It's happiness. I just want to be HAPPY...
15. Before, I was so hot tempered but now I can control my temper most of the time...yahoo! Thanks to Koren, Innex, Annex,Panyang, DJ, Astrah and many more who were there for me even though I had a very bad temper...hahaha!
16. Soccer taught me a lot of things...patience, teamwork and so forth.
17. I can sleep for 12 hours a day and I can just lie down on my bed for almost a day.
18. I'm a couch potato. I can watch dvds for hours and have my meals there at the same time.
19. I'm a procrastinator. I just love cramming. di na natoto..
20. I hate writing using a pen and a paper.
21. I'm not confident to be in a relationship...I don't think I can handle it. hahaha! blame it for getting used to being alone all the time.
22. I still believe in HAPPY ENDING...fate and destiny..but then I also believe that there are some things that we have to wouk on. DUH! I'm such a romantic sucker.
23. I'm not good in English...I sucks when it comes to writing..(that's what I think)
24. I want to learn one martial art, photography or do bungee jumping before I die.
25. I admire people who have sense of humor and who are intelligent and open-minded..

gosh! I forgot...this will be my 26th..anyway..I don't like to eat any lamang loob like liver, intestines and so on but I do like liver spread and dinuguan...hahaha!

Here are the 25 things about me..It took me an hour to think about these things. Now, it's ur turn..

Blogging and tagging...SUHS2000 saturday night

A few minutes ago...I got my grade in Second language Acquisition. I thought I did not make it. I can't imagine if I'm going to take that subject again. Last trimester was so traumatic that I don't think I want to repeat the same course. Anyway, I'm thankful that GOD is so merciful that he helped me. I was so happy when I opened my online grade. It was like I was about to jump out from my seat. No more worries about SLA. Now, I can focus on my courses this trimester. FIGHTING!

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Saturday, Jan 31st

I was so excited to have dinner with my batchmates that I didn't even want to attend my classes anymore last Saturday. Because of my laziness and excitement, I was absent in one of my subjects and that was unplanned and unexcpected. Well, there's always a first time. Anyway, I met my SUHS2000 batchmates here in Manila because we had to talk about our homecoming and the activities that we would like to have. Of course, all of us want it to be grand...palaban kasi batch namin..hahaha! So, we dined in Krocs again and then we had a meeting. It was so funny when we were about to pay the bill. We coerce our other batchmates to shell out some money and pay for the bill. In the end, some of us only paid less. hahaha! After that, we went to Ponte to hang out but then we there were bands playings so most of us didn't feel like it so we transferred and went to Absinth. There, we danced until our feet hurt. I think, this event is going to be one of the highlights this year...What a memorable Saturday night!

Here are some of our pictures...

First stop: Krocodile Grill, Greenbelt3 (dinner and meeting)

Paying of bills....well, some of us didn't want to pay much since we are students..hahaha! OH! wait...the students (Jogie and Carlo) were the one who gave a thousand...mmmmm...

LET'S START THE PARTY...

Absinth, Greenbelt3

single ladies...let's have a party..hahaha!

Deejay's farewell dinner

Monday--January 26, 2009

Greenbelt 3

I got a long weekend and I planned to go to La Union and Baguio with Ayka and Weng but then unexpected things happened and it was postponed. One of the reasons why was DJ..she was in town and she wanted us and our other highschool batchmates to meet up. Well, I'm cool with it. Who doesn't want to see her batchmates, right?

Meeting place: Starbucks, Greenbelt 3

Okay..I arrived first in the meeting place. Good for me. I think I'm now a punctual person. Thank god for our company rule which is--one can't be late even a minute. hahaha! Then, DJ arrived then followed by Carlo, Astrah, Apyang (though she's not our batchmate but she's like an adopted alread..;]) then Miguel. Oh! we were busy calling people to confirm if they were coming or not while waiting for the others to arrive. mmmm! Some people are just too busy that it's hard for us to have a get together...after few minutes, we decided to look for a restaurant so that we can have dinner...Gosh! Everybody was hungry already...

Krocs grill, Greenbelt 3

All right, we had some drinks before ordering food then snapping of pictures then chatting about our lives then other people's lives or shall I say our batchmates' lives.

The topics were:

1. the high school love teams--the unforgettable high school love teams like sssshhhh...

2. the batchmates who got married--Oh! we made a list and I think it was quite a long list. Maybe I'll post it one of these days.

3. our career and lovelife--I don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing that everyone of us are single hahaha!. When it comes to career, I think everybody or maybe almost everybody are contented.

To wrap it up, the dinner was great. It was so fun! It struck me how I miss my high school friends, our school and our escapades. I'm also glad that we had that dinner since it was DJ's farewell party. It might take us years again to meet. For us who are still here, hope we will find time to hang out...

Long awaited weekend of the Angels

It's been months since we last saw each other. The last time was in Grace's birthday and it was ages ago. Anyway, the ultimate reason why it took us months to hang out together was our SCHEDULE especially Grace, Weng and I...So guilty that we some kinda stood up Nancy and Ayka. They were the ones who kept on bugging us about our meeting. Grace and I were too busy last term because of our papers and Weng had busy sched. Busy, busy...blame it to our sched..hahaha!

The long awaited weekend...

Finally, we decided to meet last SUNDAY. Since it was the only time that we were all vacant. hahaha! The time was settled but there were last minute a night before. Instead of going to Tagaytay, we ended up hanging out in Alabang...Well, it was not bad since it seemed like we were in Tagaytay because of the weather. It was so chilly.

PLAN:

Meeting place: ATC at 11:00AM
Lunch: West gate
After Lunch: Bowling
Late afternoon: Have coffee

Well, as usual we did not all arrive at 11:00AM..hahaha! Congratulations to Ayka and Nancy. They arrived exactly 11:00 or before 11:00. Followed by yours and truly..I arrived 15 minutes late. I was so engrossed in revising my paper that I forgot the time. Then followed by Shey and Grace. They were an hour and half late...Oh! We were so hungry. Then finally, Weng arrived and the time was 2:00PM...wooh..[It's better to be late than not to show up at all]. We could eat anything and anywhere but then we decided to have late or shall I say very late lunch in Westgate.

Each of us got a gift from Nancy...The cutest picture frame..hahaha!

Last Saturday was my first time to eat Paella because it looked yucky but then when I tasted it..Oh! it was so delicious. I think this will be one of my favorite dishes now.

AFTER LUNCH

We went to Paeng's bowling center in ATC. It was Ayka's first time to play bowling but then she was one of our highest scorers. hahaha!

AFTER BOWLING

Last stop...back to Westgate to have coffee in UCC. It was my first time to have coffee there since we decided not to have Starbucks because it's been our hang out place ever since. In short, we wanted to try another coffee. BTW, it was Weng's treat for us..for being late..hahaha! So, I really want to thank her for treating us. Also, for giving me the shawl (the pink one that I'm wearing).

The coffee in UCC is one of the best. It's heavenly but it's very expensive so I don't think I will always hang out there. hahaha!

Flavor of Life by Utada Hikaru

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Neither friends nor lovers, in uncertain terms
like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
because of being unable to just move one more step forward
It’s just so frustrating

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
I have no interest in them
even when things do not go the way I want them
you make me believe that there is still something in life

When asked ‘ whats wrong?’
I answer ‘its nothing’
‘i like you’ instead of ‘i love you’ is more like the person I knew
the flavor of life

The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
‘i like you’ instead of ‘i love you’ is more like the person I knew
the flavor of life

I wish I could cherish the white color of the falling snow like I used to
by the time I would remember the scent of the person I’ve nearly forgotten

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to live it with you
when you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesnt
get undone even after the good bye.
he faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

another year has come...

I had 5 days vacation because of the holiday. I spent most of my days in Batangas, hanging out with my cousins and of course watching DVD. I went back to Alabang last Saturday because I didn't want to be caught in a traffic in Tagaytay. Anway, I did many things these past few days and one of them was to contemplate and think about the things that I want to do this year and the things I should minimize doing. Here are my random thoughts:

1. I realized that sometimes I take my friends for granted. Blame it to my busy schedule but seriously, I'm glad that they're always there for me. I just need to spend more time with them and let them feel that they are important in my life.

2. I want to have time with myself. I mean, you know going to a spa, dermclinic or salon and maybe shopping. I want to pamper myself so that I will feel that I'm neglecting myself. I will really do my best to look at the mirror and comb my hair even though I'm super duper busy. Of course, I want to be updated in fashion again. I think I was lost last year. Don't know what is in and out.

3. Live a healthy life little by little...I don't think I can get rid all of my bad habits this year so I don't want to promise anything.

4. Travel--I have to go somewhere that I've never been to.

5. Spend less.

These are some of the things that I could think of right now. There are a lot of things going on my mind and one of them is really bad or let's say scary but I'm not yet in the mood to blog it.

It's almost Christmas

Hours from now and it will be Christmas...I think I'm going to stay alone in my apartment or maybe I will go to my Team Leader's house and have a noche buena there. Anyway, I'm not yet decided on what to do this evening.

Christmas, a very important holiday...a season of love, sharing, giving and forgiving. Thinking about the things I've done and the blessings that I've received. I can say that I'm such a lucky person. I have a great family, good friends and a nice job. I don't have many responsibilities. I only look after myself and my family doesn't expect anything from me. I can say, life is so good to me. I didn't really experience hardships like others do but then I think there were times that I just took my blessing for granted. For this Christmas, I would like to wish for other people and for myself--for me to be a better person. hahaha!

Twilight and a little bit of shopping...

Yes..I hang out with my one and only apartment mate, Kareen. It's been a while since we really talked. We live in the same apartment but we didn't even have time to talk. Well, I was just too busy these past few weeks and I know that she didn't want to disturb me. Anyway, we decided to go to ATC and watch Twilight since my groupmates and I only have one more paper to revise and everything was almost done last Sunday. Before watching, of course we had our dinner and minutes before the movie starts, I saw a big SALE sign in CMG...well, I went crazy and I bought black ballerina shoes and one pink bag in just a span of few minutes..it was really awesome. It was a best buy...thank god! I passed that store...Then we went to the cinema side of the mall hurrying for we might miss the movie. I think I can't forgive myself if we've missed a part of that movie...well, I've been dying to watch this movie ever since and then when it was officially out, I didn't have time to watch it..that sucks, right? When the movie started, it was kind of disappointing at first because the Edward in my imagination is too handsome, well correction...beautiful compared to Edward in the movie but then the whole movie was kind of all right...not too bad. I was giggling and so excited when I watched it..some kinda like a teenager reaction...hahaha! Oh! I really want to watch it again...too crazy and I want to read all of the four books again...hahaha! Hmmm...a question keeps on bugging my mind...Where can I find my Edward? Imagining things again...silly..

It's over for now...

It's been a month or so that I've been cramming and busy and now, it's really official, all of my papers were submitted since last weekend and the last paper was submitted yesterday...Oh! I can't believe that I was able to submit every requirements. I thought I'm going to have an INC this sem but then there's still one problem--grades are not yet out..that will be this coming Friday and I'm not excited to find out what my grades will be...

Anyway, I really want to thank those people who were there for me especially my group mates. We've been through a lot and I'm glad that we made it. I think we're getting good in handling pressures...no much tears and crankiness and we can still manage to laugh at our mistakes...hahaha! I'm just glad that it's over..I feel like I'm so free today and I feel like shouting (party mood). I can now watch DVD, read the books that I want, shop for Christmas and meet some of my friends. Speaking of friends, I'm so sorry that I didn't have time to spend with you these past few weeks. I hope we can go out one of these day before the year ends.

One semester down...many more to go...

Excursion sa Enchanted Kingdom

Team building--
Destination: Enchanted Kingdom
Team: TeamJanbie
Date: Friday, December 05, 2008

I know that I don't have the right to have fun 'coz of my deadlines. I have papers to submit and I only have one more week to finish all of my papers. Anyway, I didn't regret that I joined our team building. It was fun even though I had a headache when I reached home and there were things that I had to do hours before I go to school. I was stressed out again and I didnt have the right to sleep since I spent my Friday afternoon having fun in EK. Well, I had to do my school stuffs...Again, sometimes cramming brings the best in me...

Going to the horror house...I think it was the the most unforgettable event. When, we entered the horror house, my TL's flip flop got broken maybe because everybody was pushing each other. Anyway, it was chaotic. When we realized what happened, my teammates and I laughed so hard that I almost roll and crawl because of my TL's reaction. Instead of getting scared, my TL was shouting to the "scary people" and was pissed off because of her flip flops. She even asked one of the "monsters" to help her out.well, I think we entered the wrong house because I though it was a comedy house...

The time I spent with my team was memorable and enjoyable. It's so nice to go out and have fun once in a while instead of just staying at home and cover myself with books and papers...hahaha! It sometimes make me feel so geeky and outdated.