so distracted

I'm so distracted this term. I'm struggling with my grades and I can't just concentrate. Those who know me, might know the reason as well. Well, the feeling is some kind of new to me so sometimes I just couldn't figure out on what to do.

random thoughts..

Its been weeks since I last posted something in this blog. Well, here's the summary of the things I did and the events I experienced...

1. My office friend, Noreen, said goodbye to us yesterday..She's going to start another chapter of her life.
TO NOREEN:
Thanks for the company for these past few years..See you soon if you are not so busy and if I have time..;)

2. I like someone..oh..oh..I don't easily like someone so this is a good news for me. It means I'm not abnormal..Looking forward to see him every week.

3. I almost vomitted last Saturday though I wasn't drunk. It's been ages since I last went to a bar and drink.

4. I quit my job--the part time job. I can't do many things at once and I'm so dead tired already.

I think these past few weeks were exciting and maybe there might be more to come. Live LIFE..

summer is over...

Last Monday, it was officially our first day of class and summer finally ends. There were many things happened, to me and my friends.

Last summer...

• I found out that one of my friends is going to have a baby but then after a couple of weeks, bad news came. There would be no baby anymore since the "baby" didn't have a heartbeat. All of us feel so sad about what happened but then everything happens for a reason.
• I was so lazy. I didn't open my books or my laptop. In short, I didn't study. I told myself before summer that I have to start studying but then I ended up watching soap operas and tv series.
• I planned to go home to my grandmother's house but since I had so many commitments, I wasn't able to do it. Part of me is pissed off since I will have no time to go home after summer. For the next few months, I'm sure I will be stuck here in the city because of my hectic schedule.
• My sister and I fought. I'm a little bit guilty about the things I've said to her but then deep inside I know she deserves it. Guilty or not, I didn't regret what I did but it irritated me that I didn't handle it well. I should have handled the situation calmly. I still have so many things to learn when it comes to handling emotions.
• Many things happened in our office and most of them were not so pleasing. I don't want to think about those things because they give me mix emotions.

Summer is indeed over. I hope the next one will be better than this summer. More time to spend with my family, friends and myself.

MY 100

1. Last beverage -water
2. Last phone call – Koren (yesterday afternoon)
3. Last text message –Astrah (about the picture that I saw in facebook)
4. Last song you listened to –Korean song(forgot the title)
5. Last time you cried –last night while watching dvd

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice -yes
7. Been cheated on? - no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? – yes
9. Lost someone special? -yes
10. Been depressed? -yes
11. Been wasted? –yes

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. pink
13. light green
14. baby blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Have you made new friends this year - yes
16. Fallen out of love – yes
17. Laughed until you cried -yes (last tuesday because of wrong grammar--salbahe ko!)
18. Met someone who changed you - nope
19. Found out who your true friends were -yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you –yes
21. Kissed anyone on your top friends list? -nope

TRUTH:

23. How many kids do you want to have – two (twins)
24. Do you have any pets - had dog after college graduation
25. Do you want to change your name - A BIG YES...
26. What did you do for your last birthday – stayed at home..i think...can't remember
27. What time did you wake up today – 3:40 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night –watched dvd
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for – to graduate
30. Last time you saw your father - summer 2008
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life –my temperament
32. What are you listening to right now – my officemate's ramblings
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? – my naughty (kid) student
36. What's your real name - Kristine
37. Relationship Status – Single
38. Zodiac sign – Virgo
39. Male or female – female
40. Elementary –St. Mary's College and Agape Christian Academy
41. Middle School – N/A
42. High school –Silliman University High School
43. Hair color – Black/Brown
44. Long or short – Long
45. Height - 5'4 1/2
46. Do you have a crush on someone? –yes..he's been my crush ever since...
47. What do you like about yourself? - broad minded..think so..
48. Piercings – Two
49. Tattoos – in my dreams only
50. Righty or lefty - Righty!

FIRSTS

51. First surgery – my right wrist
52. First piercing – I can't remember...think around 4 years old
53. First tattoo –just wishing
54. First best friend –Faith Emily Ang (elementary best friend)
55. First sport you joined –SOCCER
56. First pet –dog
57. First vacation –can't remember..I was too young back then
58. First concert –maybe violin or piano concert..either of the two
59. First crush –elementary crush..
60. First alcoholic drink –GILBEY's..I think..or beer?

RIGHT NOW:

61. Eating – nope
62. Drinking –nope
63. I'm about to - leave the office in a few minutes
64. Listening to –nothing
65. Waiting for –this to finish

YOUR FUTURE :

66. Want kids? – After marriage
67. Want to get married? yeah
68. Future Career -entrepreneur/teacher

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

69. Lips or eyes - eyes
70. Hugs or kisses - Kisses
71. Shorter or taller - Taller
72. Older or Younger – Older
73. Romantic or spontaneous - Spontaneous
74. Nice stomach or nice arms - stomach
75. Tattoos or piercings – tattoos... aaay...PIERCING pala..
76. Sensitive or loud - neither
77. Hook-up or relationship - relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant – neither

HAVE YOU EVER :

79. Kissed a stranger - nope
80. Drunk hard liquor - Yes
81. Lost glasses/contact - almost
82. Sex on first date - No
83. Broken someone's heart – Maybe
84. Had your own heart broken - yes
85. Been arrested? - No
86. Turned someone down - Yes
87. Cried when someone died - Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a boy? - Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself - Yes
90. Miracles – yes..it always happen
91. Love at first sight? - I think so..
92. Heaven – yes
93. Santa Claus –nope
94. Kissing on the first date?-it depends on who the guy is..lol!
95. Angels –yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? -not really
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Never
98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yes.
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? -my eyeglasses or contacts
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? - what do you think?

I was tagged by a friend in facebook to do this "MY 100" but instead of posting it in facebook, I rather have it here. Answering this "MY 100" was fun. It made me think of some things that I've never think of.

year 2009

This year 2009 will be one of my most important years. If God permits, I will finish my studies and hopefully I will find a job abroad because I really want to travel and experience new culture. This year seems to be my turning point. I have to play my cards right. I have to plan and make the right decisions or else I will have a terrible year.

Last night, I wasn't able to sleep because my thoughts were wandering. I can't deny the fact that I'm scared because I know I have to make decisions that can change my life. There will be many changes that will happen soon and I hope I can cope with it. It scares the hell out of me because it's my call. Nobody has to make decisions for me and nobody has to take the responsibilities except me if I screw up. The things that keeps me going are knowing that if I will succeed, everything will be better and knowing that God will help me no matter what. He's the only one who can ease my worries and bring me happiness.

God, I really need your help.

ranting about my friends rants..

"Being an adult: TOTALLY overrated. I mean seriously, don't be fooled by the hot shoes and great sex and no parents anywhere telling you what to do. Being an adult is responsibility. Responsibility really does suck. Really, REALLY sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. And if you're training to be a surgeon, holding a human heart in your hands... Hello! Talk about responsibility! Kinda makes bikes and cookies look really really good, doesn't it? The scariest part about responsibility... When you skrew up and let it slip right through your fingers. Responsibility. It really does suck. Unfortunately once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away. It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences. " --- meredith grey

I read my friend's blog [Grace] few minutes ago and I stumbled on this quote from Grey's anatomy--one of our favorite tv series. My friend is ranting about stuffs and so am I. Well, responsibility really sucks! I think, Grace and I feel the same way about things though she really has a lot of responsibilities compare to me but still they are responsibilities and sometimes I feel like they are choking me alive.

To Grace:

Beh, we really need a break. Good thing that we will have no work this Friday and Tuesday. Ayka invited me to go with them this coming Monday. They are going to have night swimming in Antipolo but I don't know if I'm going. I'm still thinking about it. Ayka told me to go out and have some good times but then I'm too lazy to do it. I think this is where some of my problems lie, laziness and so in love in hanging out in my apartment. So, what are you going to do this weekend? I just realized that I didn't really have plans for the next few days because I am so hook in watching BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS...waaahhh! Any plans for angels?

Krizz

To ANGELS: Aja! Chayo! FIGHTING!

EDITORIAL - Growing illiteracy

Once upon a time Asians came to the Philippines to avail themselves of top-quality education. Today, despite free, compulsory elementary and high school education, an estimated 5.2 million Filipinos are illiterate. The country also has one of the highest dropout rates in Asia, worse than the situation in Indonesia and even Vietnam

These disheartening facts come from the Department of Education, whose officials want stronger literacy programs for both youths and adults. DepEd officials warn that the growing illiteracy rate would take its toll on the economy. Illiteracy and the slide in the quality of Philippine education are already taking their toll on national competitiveness, as shown in numerous international surveys.

Local executives must show leadership in improving the nation’s literacy level. A literacy mapping project undertaken by the Department of the Interior and Local Government among fifth and sixth class municipalities – the most economically backward in the country – showed that literacy programs were not making much impact. DILG officials observed that literacy programs were not given priority by certain local governments.

Education programs have rarely attracted politicians’ interest. Some politicians, believing that patronage thrives on poverty and poor education, deliberately shelve programs to raise literacy levels and improve the quality of education in their jurisdictions. In some underdeveloped areas, there are simply not enough funds for literacy programs.

But the problem cannot be left to fester. In the global economy, quality education is indispensable. Development is accelerated in countries that give priority to educating their citizens. Emerging economic powers including China and India are investing heavily in public education, providing their people with the tools they need to excel in a highly competitive global environment. Countries that do not treat education with the same urgency risk being left behind. In the Philippines, educators themselves are sounding the alarm. It would be folly to ignore the warning. - (Philstar News Service, www.philstar.com)

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Isn't this so ironic? After reading this article, it just made me so sad and pissed off at the same time. Filipinos have to do some actions now. We don't have to only rely on our government but we also have to do something. If our situation will be worst 20 or so years from now, then it will be our fault..each and everyone of us.

For those Filipinos who are so selfish and corrupt to think of their country. I know that corruption is everywhere and it can't be totally be erradicated but then "wag naman masyadong makapal ang mukha". They can at least give back something and not just always getting something from their country.

at last..weekend with friends

After all the things I've been through these past few weeks, now I have time to spend with my friends...

Saturday, 8:00PM or so

Weng's crib

• We [angels] are all excited that Weng is now having a baby. Wow! I can't believe it. It's really a miracle to have a baby.
• My friends and I played Wii. It was so exciting. It lingered in my mind for hours. I really love it. I hope I have one so that I wil just play everytime I have a free time but I think it's impossible to happen and I don't think it's a good idea 'coz I will just keep on hanging out in my apartment. I think that's one of the problems why my social life is going down, I love my place so much that it becomes my favorite hang out place. hahaha! So lazy to go out.

Sunday (Lunch at Cravings, Shang-rila)

Yes, we are supposedly have to have lunch in Craving but then we (Angels) arrived around 3p.m. hahaha! It's snack time already. Well, blame it to Wii. We didn't want to leave Weng's place because we wanted to finish the game.

It was great that we were able to meet our former officemates. It was like a reunion. Many things had happened on each and every one of us. There are some of us who got married, got pregnant, got better carreer and some of us, still remains single. It was a great thing to know that everybody is doing well (that's what I think...).

After meeting our former officemates, we went to Starbucks (forever...walang kamatayan na starbucks) to hang out for couple of minutes before saying goodbye. We talked about "US" since it will be weeks again before we're going to see each other.

To wrap it up, my weekend was awesome! I'm glad that I went out and I spent time with my friends. Sometimes, we take our friends for granted and sometimes we are not sensitive enough to know their feelings. For my friends, though we have differences and we have shortcomings but then I'm happy that we still remain friends.

BEATING the red LIGHT...Summer 2009...here I come..

Research paper---two days in the making



Well, I just submitted my last requirement for this term last night at exactly 9:00. My partner and I though we beat the red light. We thought that so long as it's still April 15, we can still meet the deadline..Sad to say but when we submitted our paper, we found out that the deadline was 5pm. I think she announced it but we were not able to hear it. I hope my prof will still consider our paper. Looking back on the efforts that we did just to complete the paper on time makes me think that it was amazing. I can't believe that we made a research paper in two days...TWO DAYS..Wow! I feel like a superhuman..hahaha! I don't know how I stayed calm while I was making the paper. Maybe it's because I'm always cramming and now I get used to it. The term is over and finally, I can start my summer vacay...



Lesson learned: Don't cram but I think I will never learn...a bad habit...



SUMMER 2009..time to party!



PLANS for the summer



This coming weekend:

• Overnyt at Weng's house this Satuday


• Lunch with SISA people this Sunday

For the rest of the SUMMER

• Go out of town with friends [La Union?]


• Spend time with the Angels and Krn & Noreen [contact HS and university friends?]


• Have a date with Quirk et al [dating a grammar book?]


• Go to a beach or resort

Hope my plans will be pushed through..

random thoughts

The happiest people are the ones with a lot of options but then there are times that the options that we have are not what we truly want. So, we ended choosing the one that does not genuinely make us happy.

There are times in life that we have to accept what we can't and as we grow older there are more things that we can't have and more words that we can't say. As we grow older there are more times that we are alone and there are lesser people who take care of us. There are more unreasonable things that happen and all of these make us grow up. We have to for us to save our sanity.

wish

I wish I will feel better.
--I don't really know what's going on with me. I feel like I'm going to be depressed.

WONDERING..

I'm just wondering...What kind of feeling does one have if he/she is in love?

cold feet?

"If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be." --James Russell Miller

Last trimester was a kinda traumatic experience for me. Looking back at it, I still couldn't fathom how I did all the requirements my prof gave me. I could say that it made me feel like a real and true student. Well, I was a slacker back then but due to maturity I'm now more responsible when it comes to studying( I think so...). That time of my life is over and I'm glad that I am able to survive that appaling trimester. I don't have to see my prof who gave me a hard time. Thank god for that. It was a challenge and part of me is glad that I took the challenge but then I don't ever wish to do it again. I think I might not survive...traumatized..hahaha! Well, that's what I thought...I thought I will not encounter my scary prof again but then there's a possibility that things might not go well next trimester since there's a big chance that I really have to get the course that my scary prof is going to handle next term. I still have time to change my fate though. I just have to make my convincing power and charm work and hope my temper will not ruin my plans.

Months from now will be the start of my first term and if my plan fails, I can say that I am doom. Gosh! I'm sure I will have endless sleepless nights and worries. I can imagine the awful things that might happen to me and to my classmates. It's kinda funny if I'm going to think about it. Funny to think that everybody will be nervous and everybody will be dreading their class. Funny to think that all will look terrible.

Am I up to the challenge? I'm not sure. Maybe not. It scares the hell out of me but then thinking about it all over again and again makes me realize that maybe I should take the challenge. Enroll in the course that my scary prof will handle. Part of me thinks that I will learn a lot from her. Sometimes my classmates joke around and tell me that I'm one of the unluckiest person in our class. In a way, yes..I'm unlucky but I did learn something...just in a hard way.

I'm crossing my fingers that something good will happen. If not, then I will just cross the bridge when I get there. Maybe it will be a good experience for me and maybe it will make me a better person than I am now.

Miss listening to English and Filipino songs...

These past few months, I've been so crazy listening to soundtracks of different Asian dramas that I've watched. Well, if you're going to open my laptop, the playlist that you can find in my mp3 player will be Asian songs..Korean, Japanese and Taiwanese songs and I don't even understand them. I just like the rhythm and melody and they are so pleasing to my ears.

Early this morning I logged on in magic 89.9 and listened to the music they were playing. Then something happened...I missed listening to English songs and I found out that I missed a lot of things. The songs were new to my ears and I felt good listening to it. It just amazed me. I'm not regretting listening to bunch of songs that I don't understand since it makes me appreciate Asian thingy but then it's just too bad to overdo it. Months ago, I was so curious about anything that was Asian..their language, their drama (tv series), their culture and fashion. I was so into it and I think I still am..waah! Anyway, it's so nice to know different cultures. It makes me realize how great and colorful Asia is. So beautiful that I hope I will be lucky enough to have a chance to explore it.

struggles

These past few days have been a little bit hard. The world's economy is not so good or shall I say getting bad that some companies closed already and many people didn't have a job anymore. Some of my friends are affected by the crisis that has been going on. Though I'm not really affected by this phenomenon but soon I think I will be. It makes me feel bad because most of them need their job badly because they have more responsibilities in life. I know problems come in our way so that we will become a better person and so that we will know our priorities in life. It also makes me think..what if I were them? I think if I would be in the same situation as them, I would take it as a blesing. I will be able to concentrate on my studies but then I will be broke. If I will be broke, I can still live but I really have to live as simple as I can. Maybe I will do some volunteer work since I have more time. I'm planning doing volunteer work as soon as I finish my studies. It's one of the things that I really want to do in this lifetime, to do somethign for others and maybe I can affect some of their lives. These past few days, I received a lot of bad news but then again I'm not directly involved in these news and then it further makes me realize how bless I am and it make me appreciate what I have. I have problems but my problems are the things that I have a control of. If I just worked harder, I don't think I will be facing these kind of things. I would not have failed in my evaluation and exam. I would have gotten better scores. It makes me feel disappointed. Though, I made efforts to have higher scores but then the reason I failed could be because I didn't give my best.

If I were to have a wish right now, I wish everything would be alright.

PETER PAN SYNDROME, do I have one?*******

blah..blah..blah..If anyone reads my blog sometimes they might say that I'm kinda mature person but I don't think so. I always complain and I'm scared to death to face responsibilities. Oh! I hate problems and I always want to be comfortable. I always want my life to be free of hassles. Sometimes, it makes me ask myself If I have Peter Pan syndrome. My mom once said that I have to know how to face my own problems maturely. It's just so hard to be a grown up. I know there are still so many issues going on in my head. I hope I know how to figure out each of them.

Here I go again..maybe I'm just thinking too much!

Touch my body...the other version

Gosh, this is one of the funniest video I've ever watched. It's so hilarious that I almost fell out of my chair. This video completes my day. hahaha! I hope you will love this.

This is the original lyrics of the song.

TOUCH MY BODY by Mariah Carey

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

[Chorus:]
If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my bidness
Like a Wendy Interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

[Chorus]

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

I'm gonna treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...

musing...

Last Wednesday, I got my braces. Now, I really look like Ugly Betty. I wear glasses and braces. I'm sure I look like a geeky person and I don't think many of us want to look like one. So, I will try my best to be diligent in putting on my contacts. Gosh! I'm too lazy to care for my appearance. hahaha! I don't want to put on my contacts early in the morning and I don't want to put on a little bit of make-up just to be presentable. I rather sleep than wake up early just to do these things every morning. Then it made me think, I really have to start caring.

BTW, this is my braces and its pink...hahaha!

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Speaking of CARE, I sometimes don't care and that's the truth. Even though many things is already happening around me, I usually have late reaction or there are times that I simply don't feel anything except when something bad happens to one of my closest friends but when it comes to myself, this kind of thing usually happens--not caring. Gosh! I think I'm a cold person. I don't exactly know when I started feeling this way. Maybe wayback when I was in high school, when I encountered several disappointments. I always don't expect something from someone or from anything that I do. I don't expect to excel and I don't expect to do things better than others 'cause I will just end up bitter and frustrated. Now, I realize that my life is a little bit chaotic since I don't really care much about it. I feel like I didn't do anything right these past few months and I'm dismayed. I thought everything will be alright but then I'm wrong. Either way, I will still feel disappointed--for myself or on the things surrounding me. Well, life is full of disappointments and it's part of growing up. It's just how we're going to handle the different situations that come along.

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The funny thing that makes me realize about these things are when my friends told me about their problems. Yesterday, I received text messages and online messages from my friends almost at the same time. They told me about their worries in life. One is worried about her performance in her office and her capabilities, two were worried about their studies, one is worried about someone's health and the other is regretting her decision. How about me? I am worried about them. The things that they said to me made me think that I should also worry about my studies and my performance in my company because I'm not doing well. It's like I'm a mediocre and a walking failure. So, today I said to myself that I have to aim high and that I have to do my best in everything not just in some things.

Missing soccer...

It's been years since I last played soccer. If I can remember it right, the last time I played was after my college graduation. I convinced my mom to allow me to go back to Dumaguete to process my school documents but at the back of my mind, the real reason that I went back was because I wanted to play soccer. I think leaving Dumaguete particulary Silliman is one my lowest point in life. I just really love that place and the people. I feel so comfortable and happy just thinking of the memories I have way back high school then college especially the time when I was in the field playing with my team mates.

Soccer...my favorite sport. I started playing it when I was in high school. It was just for fun, no pressure at all. Our coach treated us like babies. The real game started when I played soccer in college. I stopped playing when I was in my freshmen and sophomore years in college due to my course and also due to some personal reasons. I was in my junior year in college when I went back playing. Our coach taught me a lot of things--not just playing the game but building my character. I think, I've been more patient, considerate and persevere person because of soccer. Remembering the trainings and scolding that we've got from our coach makes me say that it is worth it. If I were to do one thing in my life all over again, I would like to play soccer again. It's the only thing that I can remember doing where I gave my 100%. Though, I was not so good in playing but at least I gave my everything. Our team standing was not one of the best and was so behind compared to our soccer men varsity but then we were fighters. We lost a lot of games and we won a few but it made me realize that it doesn't really matter if we were not the number one team. What matters most is we worked as a team and we did what we could. For me, it's alright to fail so long as I did my best. As I cruise down my memory lane, I remember that I miss some of my afternoon classes just to practice playing soccer. I could not bear to be absent in our afternoon soccer practices that I rather ditch my classes and my meeting with my friends. I like to smell again the scent of a newly cut grass and spend my afternoon in the field with a soccer ball. I want to experience this kind of thing again. Doing something that I love.


As days passed by, I came to realize that we have to follow our heart for us to find happiness and as I encountered different types of people, I can say that I'm still fortunate because I was able to do the things I want when I still studying in high school and college. Maybe that's why I always say that those were my "golden" years. As for the months and years to come, I will truly try my best to make more wonderful memories and to do the things that makes me happy. I only live once in this earth, I hope that I will be as carefree as I could be.